LITERATURE: A Death in The Family – Reader Involvement

I seem to be reading this part of the story in careful, hushed tones.  Has the author, James Agee, brought this about?  Does the reader become funereal with the waiting for confirmation of death?  In preparation for the ceremonies that necessarily accompany the event even though they are mere methods of stalling?

I’ve been through many, many deaths of dear ones, in all stages and in all ranges of shock to patient waiting and watching for the last pulse of blood, that last shuddering exhaled breath.  Agee has us witness a part of this drama, and has brought me to tears with this moment between Mary and her father shortly after they’ve heard the news:

He came over to her and took her hand and looked at her searchingly.  Why he’s just my height, she realized again.  She saw how much his eyes, in sympathy and pain, were like his sisters, tired, tender and resolute beneath the tired, frail eyelids.  He could not speak first.

You’re a good man, she said to herself, and her lips moved.  A good, good man.  My father.  In an instant she experienced afresh the whole of their friendship and estrangement.  Her eyes filled with tears and her mouth began to tremble.  "Papa," she said.  He took her close to him and she cried quietly. (p. 118)

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REALITY?: More PC BS

More and more I want to cut ties to humanity when I see how it’s determined to dumb itself down.

Australian Santas must change "Ho-ho-ho!" to "Ha-ha-ha!" to accommodate the idiots who believe this is degrading and offensive to women.

(Thanks to Fragments from Floyd for the link)

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LITERATURE: A Death in The Family – Emotion Level

So it ended up taking about twenty-three pages to find out that Jay is dead, but there is a building up of emotion–if not tension–Agee does well.  It still seems to be slow, but then again, that may just be because I’m reading this in small quick doses spaced farther apart than my normal reading style.  (Good reason/excuse: I’ve been writing a lot.) There is a pacing of language and information that seems to match the agony of waiting to hear about a loved one in an accident.  There is a politeness and caution in the conversations, as if afraid to be optimistic, yet reluctant to accept the worst before it is confirmed.

There’s also some clear and concise simile that hits home once Mary’s brother Andrew returns with the bad news:

While he broke ice and brought glasses and a pitcher of water, none of them spoke; Mary sat in a distorted kind of helplessness at once meek and curiously sullen, waiting.  Months later, seeing a horse which had fallen in the street, Andrew was to remember her; and he was to remember it wasn’t drunkenness, either.  It was just the flat of the hand of Death. (p. 115)

"It was just the flat of the hand of Death."  Yeah.

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REALITY?: Thanksgiving Harvest

For some reason I always manage to make an excellent turkey, but one thing that made things special this year is that most of the herbs in the stuffing, a butternut squash side dish, and the wine was home grown and home made.

The wine–well, it’s the usual grapes from out back that I made in  2005 but just neglected after it’s final racking so it sat in two jugs for two years until this summer when I needed the 5-gallon containers for the new wine.  It looked a little brownish and it seemed a bit harsh so I wasn’t as careful to save as much of it as possible when I bottled it.

It’s likely the best–or nearly the best, the raspberry was probably the best–wine I’ve ever made, though it doesn’t taste like a dry wine.  It tastes like sherry.  It’s very good and the only reason I can come up with that it does is that even though I didn’t use flor sherry yeast and didn’t get the flor on the top, a small exposure to air and light evidently did send it on its way towards becoming sherry, and it has mellowed in the bottle these last three months.

Now I wish I hadn’t been so hasty in dumping it as I got near the bottom sediment.   

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REALITY?: Happy Thanksgiving

Giving thanks for memories of family and good friends, moments in time that will forever remain in place.  Happy Thanksgiving to you all.

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LITERATURE: A Death in The Family – Drama

While it looked like i hadn’t been reading at all, I did manage a page or two at a time on this and the fact that I’ve been taken with a hypertext project I’m working on is not totally to blame. 

The plot is soooooo slooooow.

Normally I don’t mind this, being a bit changed from the need for speed and constant action from a novel and into more of a mood, a setting, a grasp of something important going on that I don’t want to miss.  But Agee takes 16 pages to go from a phone call to Mary telling her of a terrible accident involving her husband, Jay, and we still don’t know if he’s dead or alive.

What Agee has focused on beautifully is the tension that fairly crackles in the waiting.

"I think what’s very much more likely is, that he was already dead when the man just phoned, and that he couldn’t bear to tell me, and I don’t blame him, I’m grateful that he didn’t.  It ought to come from a man in the family, somebody–close to Jay, and to me.  I think Andrew was pretty sure–what was up–when he went out, and had every intention not to leave us in mid-air this way.  He meant to phone.  But all the time he was hoping against hope, as we all were, and when–when he saw Jay–it was more than he could do to phone, and he knew it was more than I could stand to hear over a phone, even from him, and so he didn’t, and I’m infinitely grateful he didn’t.  He must have known that as time kept–wearing on in this terrible way, we’d draw our own conclusions and have time to–time.  And that’s best.  He wanted to be with me when I heard.  And that’s right.  So do it.  Straight from his lips.  I thin what he did–what he’s doing , it’s…"  (p. 107)

What Agee has done is relate what is a very common phenomenon when someone is injured in an accident and the family at home waiting for news.  The minutes drag into hours and speculation is tentatively offered as conversation runs dry.  Imagination argues with hope, and symbols are made out of time gone by.    It’s a glimpse into a painful and tense scenario and follows the thoughts of the characters as they conflict hope with despair, belief with faltering faith in God, finally coming to a place of readiness.

Still, it’s going on a bit too long, even for me.

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REALITY?: Ah…

…the first sorry flakes of this winter’s snowfall.

And I still have no heat in the shop.

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REALITY?: Sundays and Holidays

Oh, poor Sally.  It takes me months to finish her work and when does she finally get to come and pick it up?  On a Sunday, when I charge rates at time and a half.

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REALITY?: Unwinding

My back is aching from standing all day and if I take a deep breath it gets stuck.  Leftover pork roast with gravy for dinner, and worth the bit of prep, baked apples with brown sugar and butter and sour cream.

Going to read a bit, get caught up on things this evening.  Some more work planned for tomorrow.

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REALITY?: Whew!

Am absolutely exhausted and hurtin’.  Because of my own lack of productive energy in the shop for a while, I just hustled and did some heavy duty framing in the last few days.  And those days were at least ten, usually twelve, and one sixteen hours long. 

I really wish I had had the smarts to go to college right out of high school and develop some kind of career instead of wasting time and intelligence bouncing around without focus to come down to a skilled labor position.  And one that is rather taxing on the body, if not the mind.  This body in particular, and with no heat other than  a small space heater in a 20 x 20 foot wooden barn.

Maybe in my next life I’ll have the brains both to do well, and to know enough to do it when I’m young enough for it to matter.

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REALITY?: Work

It’s after nine and I’m still in the frameshop.  I got in here before eight this morning.  I am tired.

My own fault; I’ve been letting things slide into a pileup for months, a habit from a couple of years that had me badly out of tune with routine and life.  So it’s time to pay the piper.

But I have been writing a lot on a hypertext fiction project and learning the Storyspace software to work in. So it’s write, cut a mat, glue and nail a corner, write, write.  Sometimes I sneak in a read, but at a page or two at a time it’s hardly anything to post about.  I should be in better shape by the weekend.

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REALITY?: And Literature and Writing and Trying to Keep My Ass Warm

I know, I know, I know: My slowdown has wheeled to a near stop here.  However, I’ve been writing both in my Storyspace project (the damn thing has grown from 75 writing spaces to over 200) and have posted about it in Hypercompendia.  I’m enjoying it so that’s where my head’s at right now.  I’m sixty now and can do as I damn well please.  For the most part.

Which brings me to the money-making part of my life, the picture framing and the necessity of getting caught up with that before the clientele forms a lynch mob.  There’s an additional problem that’s developed here besides lack of enthusiasm; my propane heater needs to be replaced and the serviceman strongly urged me against trying to use it as is.  He said that it’ll either gas me if the pilot goes out and I haven’t noticed (I suspect this has been happening for some time–but the barn is so open to the elements that it hasn’t killed me yet) or it’ll blow up (now that’d be a more serious problem).

I’m trying to justify the money I make here versus the outlay of a new stove, the phone bills and advertising.  But then again, nobody’s paying me for my writing or any of the other things I’d rather be doing.

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CURRENT AFFAIRS: Presidential Fallout

It scares me silly that Hillary is still leading in the Democratic polls.  I can only do so much, so I started calming myself down in preparation.  Yes, by avoiding as much interest or involvement, and any and all political discussion, I can somehow make it through four years of anybody as leader of my country.

But there’s this:  For four years, I’ll not be as trusting of people, of their allegiance or intelligence.  I’ll always wonder if they were the ones responsible by their vote.

Of course, I can’t avoid but wonder about that in any election, winner or loser and choice.

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REALITY?: Surreal

Took these early this morning and forgot to post them.  No Photoshopping here, not even cropped, so you can see the sign across the street, the overhang of our roof, the laurel bush in front.


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LITERATURE & WRITING: Choice

With the very best of intentions and a birthday dinner to boot, my neighbor questioned me once again if I’d yet read her gift to me last year, Janet Evanovich’s Three Plums in One.  I could see she was disappointed that I hadn’t, and once again I reminded her that I’ve got about a couple hundred books to read and i’m trying to get in some of the classic literary novels as well as some of the philosophical writings of ages long past.

Then came the real reason she’s pushing me to read it:  she thinks I should write books like that.  It’s what she likes reading (she wasn’t nuts about the text version of Path in otto, admitting she got lost and didn’t see the sense of it).  When I told her that I was excited about the true hypertext version of Paths that I’ve been working on for the past several weeks, her eyes glazed and I knew that I’d lost her.

She tried to convince me that I’m a good writer (how would she know?) and I should concentrate on what sells and what she and her friends enjoy reading.  And, that I’d be terrific in writing the genre.

Good thing I didn’t have more than a glass and a half of wine.

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