LITERATURE: 100 Years – Catching up with Background

I laid this book aside a day, knowing that a war was imminent and both for need to prepare myself for battle here and in reality, as well as a decided lack of interest in the politics of yet another screwed-up country.

Marquez’s first line of 100 Years repeats itself in my head:

"Many years later, as he faced the firing squad, Colonel Aureliano Buendia was to remember that distant afternoon when his father took him to discover ice."

One hundred pages later, we find Aureliano a young widower in a time and village that is involved in unsettlement of government.  He is tied to the Conservatives though marriage, unguided by his father, who has managed (until his unfortunate breakdown and resultant life tethered to a tree) to keep the village he had founded fairly free of government till now, and disgusted both by the Conservative tampering of ballots and the Liberal thirst for blood of even those containing lesser pints, like children, Aureliano strikes out with an army of his own.  We cheer him on, for he seems to have found himself at last. 

And also at last, we find and place him back and forward in time by Marquez’s clever manipulation–and an unmatched sense of humor:

"Don Apolinar Moscote had trouble identifying that conspirator in high boots and with a rifle slung over his shoulder with the person he had played dominoes with until nine in the evening.

‘This is madness, Aurelito,’ he exclaimed.

‘Not madness," Aureliano said.  ‘War.  And don’t call me Aurelito any more.  Now I’m Colonel Aureliano Buendia.’ "

I turn the page to a new chapter:

"Colonel Aureliano Buendia organized thirty-two armed uprisings and he lost them all.  He had seventeen male children by seventeen different women and they were exterminated one after the other on a single night before the oldest one had reached the age of thirty-five.  He survived fourteen attempts on his life, seventy-three ambushes, and a firing squad.  he lived through a dose of strychnine in his coffee that was enough to kill a horse."

"(…)He shot himself in the chest with a pistol and the bullet came out through his back without claiming any vital organs.  The only thing left of all that was a street that bore his name in Macondo.  And yet, as he declared a few years before he died of old age, he had not expected any of that on the dawn he left with his twenty-one men to join the forces of General Victorio Medina."

There you go.  We find out that nothing is what it seems to be.  The "discovered ice" was brought to this hot climate by a gypsy.  The firing squad that Aureliano faced on page one were lousy shots, I guess.  Not really false illusions pretentiously offered us by Marquez, but pictures we have decided on our own from his intriguing opening sentence.  Because we wrote the book, we can only laugh at ourselves for our mistakes in perception.

And isn’t that where Marquez excels in writing?  Perhaps I would feel cheated if this were the end of the Buendia story, but it is not.  There’s more–three hundred pages more to lure me onward.  And if I have come to accept the surrealism of parts of story, and if I have been misguided in my path by my own choosing, then shall I not proceed with ever more caution?

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WRITING: Natural Elements

Jesus, who put another quarter in me?

As I have been transferring postings into Word, I’ve read some and realize that I write–though not speak–often naturally in alliteration.  i.e., "poring over plot plans," "trace on tables," "rev up with a roar," "cellar of my soul."

I do wonder if this element of poetry is developed over time of reading, writing, learning; or merely mired in metaphor that leaks of lazy loquacity in reaching for a better word further down the alphabet.

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EDGAR & I: A Reunion

Though he and I have not been close this long past year, I think of him and find a whisper of an answer in my writing style and language used of late.

Not straightforward like Marquez, nor influenced as yet by skill in imagery in blunt words rather than a wallpaper of story (though I hope to be!), I find myself retreating into metaphor and vagaries of verse to speak my mind.  Perhaps it is when I am most vulnerable, that I begin to mold the wall of stones and stories around me.

Yet all I really have to do is shut the damn pc off.

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REALITY: Self-Esteem

It don’t take much to come up from the cellar of my soul to bask in the sunshine from the skylight in the roof.

In talking with two surveyors, poring over a plot plan in discussion.  Making my excuses that, while I know the terminology, they should not expect that I really do know what I’m talking about.  Having one stare me in the eye, nodding slowly, and tell me, You do know what you’re talking about.

These words were said to me once before recently, before a presentation on new media via weblog, from someone I respected as authority on the topic.  It then, as today, acted like a stairwell leading from the dark oblivion of self-doubt. 

Call it poor self-esteem, needy, a woman’s mood (although I am beyond that and never truly suffered from the mood swings caused by cycle, but rather orchestrated this from perhaps a deeper source to evolve this tendency), or just a near-manic/obsessive personality, but I feel pretty good about myself right now.

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REALITY: Civilization and Societal Change

Someday, men shall evolve enough to understand not to kill a bug alit on a white curtain.

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REALITY: Balance Beam

I am the baby.  Not the gold-curled firstborn only child for six full years.  Nor the early middle, who weighed in light except in temper and grew quick to tallest and demand.  The afterthought, my name was Peter, as my father’s, for surely last would be a boy.   But it was not to be.

I followed roads paved fast in slickest asphalt, sturdy, straight and narrow.  Dull black ribbons leading to the end of lives and holes filled over; I couldn’t follow.  No, my life and end would be a dust that flew around and left its trace on tables, rugs and minds.  Life should have been so simple for the youngest, but not learning from mistakes not made by others, I had to make my own.  Barefoot hot on asphalt, I hopped around and off the path of righteous glory.  Anger, worry, and secret smiles encouraged me.

All greatly loved and equal yet he had his favorite one, and she the other.  I often wondered why, if satisfied, they still had me.  And wonder if the bonus draw was disappointing, and first straw drawn was settled on instead.

I am the baby, not the one who should have listened to the last two dying breaths of one, covered with a modest sheet the still, naked body of the other parent left to me.  I am the errant one, not made to Nadia-dance the balance beam and triple flip in grace across the floor, landing on both feet with chest thrown out and arms widespread to catch the wind.  And yet I have.  Clumsy with the eager rush to life, the needing of the seeing of the dark, and humor in all else, I slow to patience and soft words, as buffer, peacekeeper, conscience. 

I am the baby, growing old.

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REALITY: Sleepless in Burlington

The eloquent Loretta (Pomegranates and Paper) posted earlier this week on the tossing and turning that comes with the territory (of women?  of worry?  of hot summer nights?) and there’s a small group forming that may consider instant messaging at midnight.

The only way I have been able to sleep the past couple weeks is watching tv.  But then after only a coupla-two-tree hours I awake and cannot regain ground on the need for the rest, for my mind, if allowed any quiet time, will rev up with the roar of a foundry of thought.

Yesterday was a semi-good day for the personal news:  a job possibility for him (not for me–no one wants me, it seems!); a few coins in a collection that may be worth more than face value (what else do you do at four a.m. when there’s no inspirational words to be found?); a home heating oil contract for fifty cents cheaper than last week’s. 

And today, today I wait by the phone as my hair greys beyond the blonde I am in my mind.  I need peace of mind, I need hope, I need sleep.

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POETRY: Katrina

When ever more needed?  The walking on water,
as God grown to woman left His dolls in the rain.
The swell of the forces that grew far beyond us
crept into the city as soldiers lay sleeping
to mingle with earth in a petulant roar.
Tides of dissent rise and lap at the mountains,
hair of saran floats like fish nets on waves as
the sun shines benevolently, hideously down.
Then receding in shame as the ark rode the sea out,
the waters lay puddled in valleys of fear.
Left behind is a desert where people shall wonder
and wander in loss and in hope.

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REALITY: The Gardener

I am, this morning, collector of green beans and cherry tomatoes, red globes of sweet sunshine that pop in my mouth–those too ripe to reach basket and house.  I pause at the poppies, bright tissue petals of startling hot pink and orange, deep red and white that fall down at midnight to lay paths like a lover’s proposal and I look for the red-clothed table with champagne on ice.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years

Ah, the prodigal son returns.  Jose, who took off with the gypsies, Aurielano’s brother, has returned.  A wanderer of land and seas, a big hulk of a man who has grown to almost match the size of his penis, which, like the rest of him, is covered in tattoos.  And which he has followed around, led by its competent point of assuring him love and fortune enough to survive.  It has also captured the attention of Rebeca, the young woman who was brought to his mother’s door as a young girl sucking her finger and eating whitewash and dirt when disheartened.

"One afternoon, when everyone was having a siesta, she could no longer resist and went to his bedroom.  She found him in his shorts, lying in the hammock that he had hung from the beams with a ship’s hawser.  She was so impressed by his enormous motley nakedness that she felt an impulse to retreat.  "Excuse me," she said, "I didn’t know you were here."  But she lowered her voice so as not to wake anyone up.  "Come here," he said.  Rebeca obeyed.  She stopped beside the hammock in an icy sweat, feeling knots forming in her intestines, while Jose Arcadio stroked her ankles with the tips of his fingers, then her calves, then her thighs, murmuring, "Oh, little sister, little sister."  She had to make a supernatural effort not to die when a startingly regulated cyclonic power lifted her up by the waist and despoiled her of her intimacy with three slashes of its claws and quartered her like a little bird.  She managed to thank God for having been born before she lost herself in the inconceivable pleasure of that unbearable pain, splashing in the steaming marsh of the hammock which absorbed the explosion of blood like a blotter.

"Three days later they were married during the five-o’clock mass."

But amidst this dysfunctional family (Aurielano is just getting over the death of his 11-year old bride), there is a power even in their loving.  They are usually overcome, smitten by lust before they even understand what it is about.  The intensity that the patriarch, Jose Arcadio Buendia, puts into his quest to understand his world, is to a degree evident in his children in their own chosen goals.  Aurielano, in his pursuit of the child-woman Remedios.  For many years, in Amaranta in her resolve to destroy Rebeca’s intent to marry the wispy Pietro Crespi, prior to the return of Jose and her passionate deflowering in the hammock.  In Jose, in once having discovered the power in his penis, dutifully allows it to master his life.

I don’t care how big it is; I still like his father the best.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years

Unless two members of the Buendia family get to face a firing squad, page 96 of the Harper Perennial edition of 100 Years of Solitude includes an error in naming Arcadio rather than Aureliano as the man so honored:  "She was the last person Arcadio thought about a few years later when he faced the firing squad."

Seeing that Marquez has reminded us a couple times of the hopelessness of avoiding the issue by referring to his opening line, I am inclined to take it as a typeset error.  Although with this family, it would not seem strange or too conveniently coincidental that at least two would come to such an end.

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LITERATURE: Discussion

Okay, I get it.  Even though 100 Years of Solitude was in fact a selection of Oprah’s Book Club, I’m a bit late. 

So what am I supposed to be reading now?

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LITERATURE: Reading Well

I cannot be sure that it is the level of quality in the books and stories I am reading now, or if it is due to the learning of reading story (tx to se), or a combination of both, but I find that I read more slowly, savoring the story and seeking more than an entertainment or brief escape into another world.

It seemed that I used to be able to read a book in a day or two–of course with concentration and doing little else, but with the goal of getting from here to there; the beginning to the end.  This is naturally the point of any book, but there is sadly overlooked what is learned in between.  In the past few novels, I find myself noticing not just fine writing, but some meaning that might have eluded me in a quicker reading.  Before, I was almost unable to read a few pages and put something down; odd, because this is often used by some as evidence of a "good" book, a page-turner.  Yet I find just the opposite.  What I consider a good story appears to be one that makes me stop and think about it, enjoy it or ponder it, rather than race through to find out what happens.

It is sort of like a special day that you don’t want to end.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Meaning through Humanness

Jose is distraught, his son Aureliano busy in the alchemy shop, his wife and daughter away, his inventions having proved nothing to him.  He is wrestling with ghosts, that of Prudencio, the man he killed back in the old village, and of Melquiades, the gypsy who brought him such wonders to fiddle with.

"A few hours later, worn out by the vigil, he went into Aureliano’s workshop and asked him:  "What day is today?"  Aureliano told him that it was Tuesday.    "I was thinking the same thing," Jose Arcadio Buendia said, "but suddenly I realized that it’s still Monday, like yesterday.  Look at the sky, look at the walls, look at the begonias.  Today is Monday too."  Used to his manias, Aureliano paid no attention to him.  On the next day, Wednesday, Jose Arcadio Buendia went back to the workshop.  "This is a disaster," he said.  "Look at the air, listen to the buzzing of the sun, the same as yesterday and the day before.  Today is Monday too."

Wow.  That’s an interesting idea, no?  And I note here particularly Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s choice of words, his use of language:  "Look at the sky, look at the wall, look at the begonias."  In a tense moment of insight on the part of Jose, Marquez softens it with the word "begonias" which, while not funny in itself, just is in this instance.  In fact, another "side" of the word is that in truth, the begonias which are living plants, would change in four days.  Is Marquez pointing out things we take for granted that are transient?  Has he carefully selected the words to zoom in from sky, to wall, to flower?  And the unnatural action of "looking" at air, and the "buzzing of the sun" reiterates the feeling in Jose’s questioning of the natural space of time.

"He spent six hours examining things, trying to find a difference in their appearance on the previous day in the hope of discovering in them some change that would reveal the passage of time.  He spent the whole night in bed with his eyes open, calling to Prudencio Aquilar, to Melquiades, to all the dead, so that they would share his distress.  But no one came.  On Friday, before anyone arose, he watched the appearance of nature again until he did not have the slightest doubt but that it was Monday."

Hate to say this, but I understand this theory perfectly.   I read these paragraphs in wonder and sympathy, knowing that I myself have followed a similar path of thought–even posting on it on Spinning once after a few quiet moments in the dark garage.  These are the things men think about, worry about, but rarely speak of with others.  Jose Arcadio Buendia is a philosopher looking for some shred of truth to expound upon, wanting his wild ideas validated by scientific evidence.  I love him.  I love his willingness to find more meaning and understanding of his world than rising, working, eating, shitting and going back to bed.

Of course, he does end up tied to a chestnut tree babbling to himself.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Character

Jose Arcadio Buendia is a man of vision, a man of hope, and a man of science.  He has the inquisitive mind that will ask the questions and look for answers.  What man would look at the invention of the camera and daguerrotype, and use it to challenge his religious beliefs?

"In the meantime, Melquiades had printed on his plates everything that was printable in Macondo, and he left the daguerrotype laboratory to the fantasies of Jose Arcadio Buendia, who had resolved to use it to obtain scientific proof of the existence of God.  Through a complicated process of superimposed exposures taken in different parts of the house, he was sure that sooner or later he would get a daguerrotype of God, if He existed, or put an end once and for all to the supposition of His existence."

Who pays for a pianola which is especially delivered along with a man who takes a few weeks to assemble it carefully together, then:

"Jose Arcadio Buendia stopped his pursuit of the image of God, convinced of His nonexistence, and he took the pianola apart in order to decipher its magical secret."

There is a surrealism about this life, a fairy tale quality, and yet like fables, we know there is so much more to it.  Jose Arcadio looks to prove, looks to improve, many of the simple things around him by looking into their complexities.  He is always looking beneath the surface, beyond the obvious to explore and to, it seems, understand his world by putting it to the tests of scientific theory as if this physical proof will lay his doubts to rest, will validate his beliefs.

Don’t we all?

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