REALITY?: Feeling Good

Last night’s to-do was only marred by not-so-great food, although this is in truth the main standard by which I judge most receptions, nights out, even trips and vacations! Our honeymoon was described as a lobsterfest as we ate our way up through the coast of New England to Acadia. I could still describe every meal served on a cruise I went on many years ago, but I have forgotten exactly where the ship was headed.

The surprise anniversary for my niece and her husband was to them, a total surprise. It was great to see them enjoy what came to be a belated wedding reception, and to have their three children be there with them to enjoy it as well. J. and I were perhaps the first to leave however, both yawning our way through the music (I love to dance, he hates it). It’s early morning and I’m out to my shop to play catchup on the work I was too lazy to go back and finish after Thanksgiving dinner.

Why does it seem like I’m always running somewheres to do something in my life?

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REALITY?: Metamorphosis

Tonight I turn into a butterfly. With three dresses to choose from–a filmy creamy cloud, a floral fantasy, or a demure and devilish (copyright, Michael Jackson) black–I get to transform myself into a goddamned girl! Rather a woman, I guess, since I’m way beyond being considered a girl. At any rate, for this formal to-do tonight I am unprepared and must work all day in the shop today to catch up on that work, so getting ready tonight is going to be quite a feat in itself. But if accomplished, the transformation from plaid flannel to ladylike should be amazing. I just hope I remember we’re supposed to go. Some things can’t be changed.

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EDUCATION: Psychology

Thanks to Dr. Jerz’s suggestion to try the Myers-Briggs Personality Test, I have now been categorized as to what one can expect of me and how I will most likely react to other people and situations. I have been assured that the results are Highly Confidential, and thus I am not allowed to share them with you. If you know me in my physical presence or through my writing, be advised to take caution. I’m sorry, but that is all I am at liberty to say.

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LITERATURE: John Cheever’s The Swimmer (continued)

…A storm comes up, and there are many ways that this could be interpreted. In my view, as Neddy wonders why he loves storms, how it sweeps into a home and up the stairs, and how it always means good news to him, I understand it to be the changing of the guard at corporate executive levels where new blood is brought in offering a leap up the corporate ladder, while the old members at the helm are retired or pushed out, cleaning house so to speak: “why had the simple task of shutting the windows of an old house seemed fitting and urgent.”

As the storm passes, more indications of Neddy’s Sunday afternoon swim not being real come with subtle references to autumn leaves, closed up pools, and his lone stand along a highway he must cross, one that is littered with beer cans and debris. He crosses this border, probably one of the most dangerous of this trip and the most crucial in his life choice. But it opens up a new world for him at the Hallorans, an extremely wealthy couple who sunbathe naked by a pool with gold water. I took this, and the emphasized difference in their political and social views as people who were monied by family fortune (the gold vs. the green money of another pool), with no need to offer false visions of themselves behind clothing as so many of the overly ambitious are forced to do. The Hallorans mark another step in Neddy’s life journey. He is told that he has suffered misfortunes when Mrs. Halloran offers kind sympathy. He also notices that physically, he seems to have lost weight and his body is starting to let him down from the exertion of both the swim, and his lifestyle.

The last two stops are also indicative of how he has treated people in his past, and he overhears that he has been trying to borrow money from people who he had spurned as not being part of his social circle in the past. The final stop at a former mistress’s house reveals how she has moved on beyond their affair, and Neddy is depressed, bewildered and miserable as the truth finally closes in on him when he reaches his own front door to find the house empty and abandoned, and this is where the two stories meet and crash into bitter reality.

Cheever’s execution of the telling of an all-too-common tale of the achievement of the American dream and its possible consequences dependent upon the path taken to achieve it, is brilliant use of metaphor and words.

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REALITY?: Family Dinner

Well, the turkey’s a pile of bones that buzzards couldn’t get a meal off of, the leftover pies were sent home with my father, my sister took a bowl of my stuffing because she claims it tastes like the way my mom made it, and they’re gone. There were only six of us this year; we average about fifteen normally, but my sister’s kids were off to their own in-laws except for my nephew John. My family is the original eat-and-run stereotype. Food is a driving force in our lives, and we descend upon a table like locusts in a field. Then we fly off because we’re too sleepy to talk to each other. Tomorrow night we’ll be getting together again for a formal reception to honor a tenth wedding anniversary of my niece and her husband. It’s a surprise given by her in-laws because they never had a real wedding, and I think they’ll truly enjoy the evening.

Hope your day went well, and I’ll be finishing up a few posts later tonight.

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EDUCATION: Self Awareness

Darned few of us are sneaking in moments at our computers, but this link to Jerz’s Literacy Log offers a link to the free taking of the Myers-Briggs Personality Test.

Short on time, and more curious about my reality than my personality, I wandered onto the site Similar Minds and this Ask the Oracle for advice. I love it a lot! And of course, on the question of which should be a priority, trust the oracle to know what’s best:

Oracle Results

options heart mind gut Total
writing fiction 5 [10] [8] 23
doing other work [7] 4 1 12

The Oracle Advises…

writing fiction

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LITERATURE: John Cheever’s “The Swimmer”

The sad saga of protagonist Neddy Merrill in The Swimmer is one that should be made required reading in every marketing major’s course studies before sending one out into the corporate world sport of cross-county swimming.

I see here parallel stories, one told in what I’d call a surrealistic fable form complete with moral, as Neddy attempts to reach his goal returning home by pool-hopping across his tightly constructed and mapped out neighborhood. The other story is the underlying reality of his life that extends the period of time to cover his goal to achieve wealth and success but correlates with the stop and swim representational stages.

The opening scene of the pool sequence actually comes in at the second paragraph; the opening scene of the story seems separate and a set-up for what follows. One can almost visualize a roving camera that shows a warm sunny day, in an affluent town—to neighborhood—to pool—to two women sitting by the pool talking, then focus directly on the pool (and the only thing odd in recall is the greenish water, which is explained by minerals in the water, but is not satisfactorily explained as to why some measure hasn’t been taken to remedy it). Then the camera closes in on Neddy Merrill, and we’re off and running—or swimming—with him.

Neddy’s plan is to follow a path he’s named the “Lucinda River” after his wife, and it is unclear exactly how much she has had to do with the direction his life has taken; whether he blames her in retrospect. Each pool stop along the way is described as belonging to friends that line the banks, but they are more indicative of the type of relationships that have become turning points in his life and career. At the Bunker’s he is seen kissing and hand-shaking his way through a party, perhaps a metaphor for making and using connections in his personal goal of success. At some homes he is welcomed which may indicate a mutually beneficial relationship.

His journey tires him—an indicator or time passage in the counter reality of his life—and we are made aware of the alcohol he consumes at each stop. He is smiling as he jogs up a garden path that is paved with gravel that “cut his feet but this was only unpleasantness.” A metaphor for overcoming obstacles—perhaps people, as the next house of the Levy’s is vacant. Oddness starts to creep into the story so gradually that while we are aware something is not quite right, we’ve come to accept a good bit of what’s happened so far and are anxious to simply store the information and go on. A storm comes up …

Let me leave this here for now, so you’ll know I’m still around, but this story demands further analyzing but there’s a turkey to be stuffed. Happy Thanksgiving!

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REALITY?: 30-Hour Countdown

Missed the early morning intelligent discourse time segment of my mind, and it was wasted cleaning the bathroom and the clutter from the other rooms in preparation for the family’s descent upon the premises. I wander from one room to the next moving books, computer parts, mail, ironing, and miscellaneous items from one spot to another until they all land down the cellar in an attempt to hide them in a place where I can easily bring them back up when I need them. In fifteen years, I’ve never brought anything back upstairs before at least two years.

I’ve started a post on Literature, and have a few thoughts on other would-be entries, but they’ll have to wait until I do a bunch of framing so my customers’ homes will look nice tomorrow at the expense of my own. I also guess I should run out and buy a turkey…

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REALITY?: Family Script

I’m getting more family-oriented as I get older, and perhaps have learned to include them more in my life instead of roaming around the edges like some outlaw lured by prairies to spend just little bits of life in desert towns.

In response to a niece’s questionnaire sent to family and friends for personal insight into her life for a Psychology paper as she closes in on her Master’s, I sent off what I could, apologizing for my lack of presence in her life when I was in the wild west of my life and spent my mental time in vulgar red-dress-dancing on the tabletops in old bordertown saloons. But this reply I just received back from her made my day:

“Wow, maybe you should go into psychiatry. You brought out many things that I could not have been objective enough to discover. My life seems to make more sense when I read your responses. You connect from my early years and my life now and although my feelings about myself would probably be more negative, I think I have finally started to learn to accept the truths and not get stuck in my own black hole that I create. Thanks for taking the time. I know that you are busy but you were probably the biggest adult inspiration in my life. I don’t know if I could have had as free of a spirit and openness of mind if I didn’t have you.

Thanks, love, E”

Ah, family…

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BLOGGING: It’s A Good Thing

Found one more place that I need to wire up to a LAN—the backyard stoop. Almost every morning is a case of squat there leisurely with a cigarette (I keep forgetting that I’m no longer a smoker) and a cup of great cold coffee to end up smooshing out the cigarette and spilling coffee as I run back to my computer with what is most likely a nicotine-induced inspiration.
But what I really want to say here and what I’ve really meant to do is send you over to Jerz’s Literacy Log to note that the blogging habit has indeed landed a job for one of their own at Seton Hill.

I’ve appropriately named this entry from Martha Stewart’s famous quote, as early morning blogging serves for me the even better distraction of checking on the stock market’s latest ups and downs.

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EDUCATION: Lacking

Shoot. Just noticed that I got only a coupla entries under my EDUCATION Category here at Spinning. I’ll have to think up something to put in there that makes me sound very, very smart.

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TECHNOLOGY: Icons

Global marketing and consumerism has led to the sometimes rather annoying little pictures you find in cars, stores, everywhere and even on the monitor in a cost effective method of using international symbols as a language.

Most work well, but this one has bothered me ever since Windows 3.1 I think: The Paste Icon still looks to me like a briefcase with today’s agenda sitting just in front.

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REALITY?: Ghosts

Yesterday I stopped to visit my father’s lover, up on Silver Hill. My mother is where she would have wanted to rest forever, as she often told us because she would see across the valley to her house and watch over my father until he lay down once more forever by her side. I walked through St. Michael’s Cemetery and found so many aunts and uncles and one just recently added cousin, and all four grandparents—two of whom I’d never known. I don’t visit here as often as I did a year ago because I know she really isn’t home. And there is guilt tied in with wonder because I realize that my visits kept her here and not lurking in the rooms of my own house for since my childhood our physicality was the only wall that kept her from seeing some of what I really did and hid from a mother’s eyes. And lately my father doesn’t seem to see her as often in her bedroom anymore.

Before I left I thought of her eternal wish to watch us and turned from the charcoal granite to look out over the rolling hills but could not spot my childhood home. Trees that she had always loved had grown in ninety years to blot out the view and viewpoint.

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LITERATURE: On the Internet

I do believe I could spend all my waking hours sitting at this computer, for I have just located a website page Short Story Classics that contains so many more tales to read, and draws me away from the natural depressions in the couch where I seem to fit so well when the pillows are arranged just right and the lamp illuminates the pages of literary delight and pondering.

But by nightfall my back is sore from standing in the shop all day or at the kitchen sink, despite my stork-like posture to relieve the pressure on a spine born swaybacked.

I really, really need a laptop.

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LITERATURE: Didascalicon

I can’t believe I did this. I just ran out to the barn (my shop) to get Didascalicon because that’s where I left it this evening when I closed. This was the book I peeked into briefly earlier, and the blip of wisdom I absorbed in that flash of moment has been bothering me enough all night to have me brave the darkness of the night that brings the skunks out wandering from their quarters beneath the floorboards of the barn. I have run into them in the night a few times before and backed away. But this spring I was working with a customer in the middle of the morning and turned to find a baby stinker two feet behind her as she bent to look at frame samples on a board. We quit the premises for a few moments and when I quietly snuck back in, I came face to face with three tiny black and white sweet baby faces fanned out in defensive stance and hissing at me, tails lifted uselessly behind them. They were so adorable, yet still I screamed in surprise and scared the little boogers back into their hole. At any rate, I did go back and find Didascalicon and brought it inside the house, moving rather quickly once I remembered that a bear had been in the backyard just a few months ago…

But to the point, and Hugh of Saint Victor, this is what gave me courage to brave the night, and it was well worth it, and I think you will agree:

“The things by which every man advances in knowledge are principally two—namely, reading and meditation. Of these, reading holds first place in instruction, and it is of reading that this book treats, setting forth rules for it. For there are three things particularly necessary to learn for reading: first, each man should know what he ought to read; second, in what order he ought to read, that is, what first and what afterwards; and third, in what manner he ought to read.”

I have just placed this book a few notches before others in the queue, for I think there will be much to learn from Hugh; and, the man is not afraid to use the semicolon.

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