WRITING: mood

Not the Mood of the story setting, but the mood of the writer in writing the story.  That’s why it’s not capitalized in the title; I’m ashamed to say that I’m dependent upon it to write.  It seems so whiney and full of excuses and reminds me of my mother’s words, "a lousy ballerina will say her skirt’s too long."  This is the translation from Polish, and I suspect that I myself put in the "lousy" but the meaning is clear.  Excuses.  Blame.  Failure to thrive, strive, survive.

Now I’m pinning my deadline stickers on July 27th, the last day of the summer semester.  With luck, I’ll even push it up closer to the 24th, the first day the final exam is available online.  (Right now, I’m cramming for an exam due by tomorrow night.)  Then I’ll have to hustle my butt with reading, writing, and putting together otto for September publication, while trying to submit some new or reworked stories around.

And too, I’m antsy to return to formal study, perhaps a Lit course somewhere to help interpret my revived interest in learning to read, not trusting myself to maintain a regimented program on my own although posting on Spinning and your feedback on literature and writing posts will help keep me on course.

In other words, I must make a plan to fill my time with productive literary study and effort after the tomatoes, peppers, onions and cilantro have been chopped into salsa.

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LITERATURE: Reading

Ah, he has answered my call for further exploration into this business of reading, so I direct you to Steve Ersinghaus at The Great Lettuce Head with his series on his thoughts as a writer, reader, and instructor of literature. 

Steve starts by comparing the literary journey of reading to a physical traveling, exploring in a walk or taking a well-established route in a drive.  Some of each is automatic, learned and not needed to actively call up to direct one’s path.  But there is more information all around as we move onward to a destination, whether it be home, or work, or the end of a story.

I have just recently learned how to read for story (the reason to read fiction, after all) while acutely aware of voice, technique, character development, imagery, etc.; all the elements critical to writing.  But I as yet have to learn how to pick up on the metaphors, symbolism, meaning, theme, etc. concurrently with the other two acts of reading.  This will take skill and practice.

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LITERATURE: Glimmertrain

Done with Glimmertrain Issue #44, and found a wonderful, wonderful piece by Mary Relindes Ellis called "A Dirty Woman."  It is the best in the issue as far as I am concerned, and the one that stands out for its story, imagery, handling of time and giving character to three woman when only two exist in the present of the story.

First person pov, a woman who is visiting with her grandmother in a nursing home.  The timeline is linear over a period of probably a little over a week–one visit to the next, and then her grandmother dies.  It is background filled with flashbacks that present the narrator as a child, her grandmother as a strong independent, self-righteous but good woman and the narrator’s mother, a willful beauty who brings up her three children–two girls and a boy–alone after her philandering abusive husband leaves them.  But it is the narrator’s mother who sits as a battleground between the old woman and her granddaughter.  It is the mother who is "a dirty woman."

The warmth and personalities of each of them come alive in the reflections of the narrator, and the contrast between not only the mother and grandmother in their wild natural versus prim and proper pasts is made evident as well in the span of time that has changed them.  The mother has died, and the grandmother is dying.  This too, the old woman seems to hold against her daughter–that a child should not die before its mother–along with the knowledge of past indiscretions that she refuses, until the very end, to understand and forgive. 

The hardness of the grandmother is a shell that toughened with time, one that her daughter could not penetrate, and one that her granddaughter has never struck out of respect.  At this late stage, angered by the old woman’s stubbornness, she does lash out in defense.  It still seems useless, until the last visit, when the woman’s physical decline is matched by the fraility of her determination and she breaks down in tearful regret. 

There is strength, there is joy, there is humor and sadness within this short story, all wonderfully brought together in an expose of three women who have each been powerful in themselves, yet soft in their love of each other in a way that shields were not so much for self protection, but to protect each other.

Well written, a good story, and I’m glad I read through the issue to reach it at the very end.  Mary Relindes Ellis has a debut novel out and available at Amazon, titled "The Turtle Warrior."

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LITERATURE: Help Readers Learn to Read

How appropriate that this comes along just as I have been posting lately on how to read literature.  Well, that will continue and with the proper scholarly input as suggested, but for now, there is another way we can help readers to simply take the first steps.

From the weblog of M. J. Rose, a published author of 5 novels and several non-fiction books:

"THE HALO EFFECT is just the first book in the GOOD BOOK/GOOD CAUSE BLOG-A-THON series. I’ll be blogging about how it goes and if it takes off watch this space to get information about how to get involved with your book and/or your author.

"In the meantime, if you want to help raise some money for a good cause, all you have to do is blog about M.J. Rose’s novel THE HALO EFFECT including a link to the short animated film for the novel (http://www.vidlit.com/mj/) just once! And $5 dollars will be donated to the nonprofit literary organization Reading is Fundamental. (If you want a copy of the book for review. contact lcerand at gmail.com while supplies last.)"

"BLOG-A-THON" campaign

"The goal of this two-week campaign is to connect book lovers with a good cause and a great summer read via the vidlit for THE HALO EFFECT.

"I’ve secured pledges from real-life supporters – my publisher, agent, family and friends – who will collectively donate $5 to the nonprofit literacy organization, Reading Is Fundamental , for each website or blog that links to the Vidlit for THE HALO EFFECT before July 19.

"The goal is to get at least 500 blogs to link and raise $2500+ for the charity.

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REALITY: Facing Thine Enemy

Out at dawn, salting slugs.  It ain’t a purty sight.  (Decided not to take a photo for you; try it yourself to see what happens if you like.  It’s metamorphosis in fast forward track.)

Normally nonviolent, I had to take a stand when I found seven of the garden snails in one planter alone.  If they were party-goers, they would have been at the beer laid out in the vegetable garden and at least have had a good time before they fell into a drunken drowning stupor.

You try for pretty things, flowers and colors and good things to eat.  Weeds and critters are part of nature, and somehow we’ve decided that they don’t belong so we kill them.  Who has decided on beauty?  On what is appealing and what is not, what should live or die?  But it is not mere visual valuations that we make here, it is a manner of survival.  If left alone, the bad guys would overtake the good, and maybe we’d learn to believe that stalks without flowers and leaves are beautiful.  But that’s not really the issue.  Just as in human society and all living things, it is the powerful that overcomes the weak.  I have never seen a posy eat a snail.  Therefore, the bigger gun (me) steps into battle and emerges victorious.  With luck and quick thinking, I shall have a crown of wreathed flowers, and my scepter shall be a salt shaker.

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LITERATURE: Meaning

"Perhaps we should consider the problem of canes. You know, sometimes a cane is just a cane."               (S. Ersinghaus, 7/13/05)

Damn.  Here it is, four o’clock in the morning, I am sitting in the dark of the garage with coffee and smoke and thinking, Well, maybe sometimes, but very rarely is a cane just a cane.

I should have given the good professor a grateful hug and kiss at graduation and been done with him.  He who raises the question after the dust has settled, But does the dust exist?  But then, maybe I haven’t yet learned all I need to know from him and haven’t yet learned to ask these questions myself.  And, since my husband brought home two canes yesterday from cleaning out his grandmother’s house, the coincidence is too much to ignore.  So…

Yes, in reading literature a cane may be just a cane.  But its myriad meanings are overwhelming.  A cane is independence allowed after lessening of mobility.  It is also in contrast, hated dependence and a sign of infirmity.  It can be a symbol of importance to a gentleman walker and a threat to he who dares accost him.  It may be a companion on a walk, with a well-worn handle that fits like the hand of a lost love.  It may speak of borders and dangers and safe paths to the blind.  It will tell others of its owner’s blindness.  It explores under rocks, taps things that may repulse the fingers, can with a quick flick clear a path.  It is something you can trust, can lean upon.  It is something to wave in another’s face for emphatic insistence.  It is confidence.  It is assistance.  And sometimes, I do suppose, it is merely a cane.

Yes, please do bring up "reading," professor

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REALITY: The Dependables

071305r So for the past two weeks I have been pulling weeds, sowing seeds, transplanting flowers that pop up in the lawn to the garden and replacing them with the grass lush and long from the good garden soil.  I am Susan, Mover of the Earth.  And as you can see, while my vegie garden is about a month behind where it should be in mid-July, it is alive with the persistent flowers that drop seeds and bloom wherever.  Obviously, I didn’t have the heart to pull them out and even transplanted them to the back of the garden behind the large grouping here.  In the front, are my sadly in need of a long hot September peppers and tomatoes, and the barely discernible rows of everything else just peeking out.  The trees at the far end are the peaches, two of the smaller ones up front had started themselves from fallen peaches just a few years ago, and I never dug them up in time to move them to a better spot.  I’ll be moving the garden instead, come autumn, to a sunnier spot.

071305r2 Took another photo this evening but it didn’t really reveal what I wanted to show you:  A cardinal’s nest, lined with plastic, truly sheltering from the cool June that we had.

I’m not sure why everything came out so blueish, though it is overcast and an evening sky with enough light to not set off the flash.  But honest, Connecticut is not quite this color in July, and I don’t feel like playing with Photoshop right now to adjust it to reality tones.

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LITERATURE: McCarthy & Parker

Good grief, do I miss phenomenal writing!  Yes, I suppose I must admit that the classics don’t become that without good reason.  I’m plodding my way through short story lit journals that shall remain nameless for now (after all, I AM planning on starting my writing career with their help!), but the language of McCarthy’s Suttree, the clever Dorothy Parker, are something while I’ve just laid down as finished, would gladly reread instead.

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LITERATURE: Reading

"I think reading should be a hard job and readers should take it as seriously as they can."

S. Ersinghaus, in a comment to the post, "But I Meant…"

Well said.  Although I might compromise a bit on the should, and offer could in its place, to allow for trifles that don’t bear pondering such as "Do Not Remove Label Under Penalty of Law," or a Danielle Steel novel perhaps.

But Steve is referring to writing in its best form, that of literature.  There are several ways to read, from scanning for just the basics of concept or information to the dissection of a work in either its intellectual meanings or, as I have developed lately, its techniques of skill in presentation.  Neither of the latter will lose meaning of the story, the narrative, and yet it is something that does require learning and practice and yes, hard work, to accomplish.  The joys of understanding and appreciating a written work beyond text are comparable to the development of viewing visual art armed with questions and answers that rise above the plane of color, size or form.  It is context, it is understanding the nature of the canvas and pigment, clay or marble, time of creation and the wonder of one mind seeing into another’s. 

I would hope that Steve will see fit to expound on this simple sentence a bit more, perhaps at GLH

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REALITY: No, really.

Friend Neha just left after a short visit, but she managed to hear the static-y lectures, AND read for herself the ending to one of the Glimmertrain stories that bugged me. 

So, back on my high horse again, vindication mine, I can move on to other things like catching up on her life and simply enjoying her company.  We only have Neha for the summer and the brief semester breaks from her studies at Seton Hill, so it was great to spend a couple hours at least, though they flew by like a shed peacock feather lost from a majestically strutting male.  (!)

It will be good to get together with her next week and also have her present at the writers group meeting.  And, she’s starting Suttree soon, so that’ll be good for some literary talk as well.  Summer’s short; gotta pack it in.

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REALITY: Weary

Muscles ache with bending, stretching, crawling, pulling, yard and garden day.  Painful arms and itchy from yesterday’s run-in with the bees who liked the grasses tall and shady in their home beneath the bush.  Neighbors drive and wave and I look up, or drive and beep at my butt as I bend to pull the weeds and I don’t even have the time to turn around but look between my legs and catch the color of the car that’s halfway down the street with people laughing.  Nice to be recognized, I suppose, from every facet, every angle, every different side of me that shows itself in day or night in a small town.  Bone tired, weary, showered clean and time to get relaxed and get some ice cream in the inside side of me.

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WRITING: But I Meant…

Joe Clifford Faust has a great entry about reader interpretation despite an author’s "clear" meaning and presentation of his own conception.  "Don’t Let Me Be Misunderstood" gives some examples from Joe’s own published books to illustrate how some readers read into (or don’t read well at all) our written ideas, so carefully planned, so well understood…by us at least. 

I went to war with my professors on this one, insisting that if someone had a totally different concept of a story than what I’d written, then it only meant that I didn’t write it clearly enough.  No room for interpretation, said I; it is what I said it is.  Needless to say, it was Custer’s Last Stand, and I was vanquished by the literary Indians.

One of my  own that still rankles me is a poem I wrote about a woman’s desire to retain the thrill of not knowing what lay ahead, to tempt fate and accept what happens without asking for all the facts upfront.  One thing she does is drive her car at a 100 mph and wonders about a tree up ahead.  One of the readers thought she was going for a Sunday drive and loved to see the beauty of the tree.  Uh, no.

But Joe is right and he has the right advice for all writers:  "When it happens to you, just remember, you’re in good company."

You’ve also, I might add, at least half the time these misconceptions happen, made someone make the story to follow what they wanted it to do, and they feel all the smarter for it.  And sometimes, they’re smarter than you.

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REALITY: Broken, Bloody, Happy

Well, not really broken, but draggin’ ass across the yard to do more cleanup and of course, wounding myself in the process.  But there’s something about the blood and the mud that brings a smile to my face, as if before it is time, the two are already blending together as they certainly shall some day.  It is inevitable.  It is life, and death.

I should really consider growing lilac trees as a business.  I’m yanking them out of the lawn everywhere.  And while they’re just off the roots of the main trees, I have carefully rerooted many over the years and given them away to anybody willing to take them.  Yesterday, at my sister’s, I noticed that the two bushes I gave her just a few years ago are producing babies like mad.  I snickered.

Neat day yesterday.  Saw all my sister’s kids and their kids.  We drove down in the Porsche and I felt "cool".   Haven’t felt cool for a while.  Of course, I would’ve been even cooler if he let me drive.  Coolest, if he let me drive it alone.  But it’s his toy, and he hasn’t had it out in fifteen years, so he’s getting some enjoyment out of it at least.  We saw an Opel GT out on the road; I had me a bright yellow one of them.  Back in 1970.  Then in ’75 I got a ’69 Corvette.  Red.  With a roll bar. 

I was cool then. 

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REALITY: That Kind of Day

Well the morning went like this:  I lay on my stomach underneath trees such as a quince bush and the filbert (walking stick) and noticed things getting sticky–with blood.  Sawed into my finger without realizing it.  No big deal, kept wiping the blood away but it looked a lot worse than the cuts.  Then I went around the house on hands and knees trimming around the borders, and got stung twice by those little hornets or whatever they are.  The worst part is trying to get away from them once they zero in on you.  Escaped into the house and put deodorant on the stinging sites on my arms.  One little bugger drilled directly into the large vein on my forearm just above my wrist. 

Went back out, but had to get ready to go over to my big sister’s for a get-together.  All her kids flew in  or drove in from Spain, D.C., Seattle and Philly so we get to see the whole crew.  Should be fun–if I don’t hurt myself.

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LITERATURE: Glimmertrain #44

While I realize I’m coming down off a McCarthy and Parker high, and I knew that withdrawal would be hard, I’m really missing the jolt of a well turned phrase. 

This issue has major contest winners, and some pretty credentialed writers, including an editor of a major literary journal.  Of the stories I have read so far, one is about a divorced father and his trying to redeem himself in the eyes of his two kids over a four-day visit, one is about two brothers, their dead grandfather, and bitterness over family script, one is about an ex-drunk and his looking back over his marital problems and saving the man who was sleeping with his ex-wife, one is rather strange about a man’s feelings for a lake and his parents abandonment of him, one is about a fat man who decides to commit suicide by fasting but his plans are foiled when he dies in an automobile accident.  Each of these five stories has the same premise, that of the story being dependent upon past baggage (brought up in flashback) to explain the current situation of story. The one I’m reading now is very near Push The Bully in context, a blonde boy brought into an  environment of a game among the poorer servant’s boys of India, and while I cannot really say much else about the story yet, I admit I peeked to the end and it clearly states that the character has accomplished the required change.  I mean, clearly states the fact. 

But something else is missing.  A lot is missing.  There are no awe-inspiring techniques, nothing that moves the needle on my WOW meter.  They are well enough written (look who’s talking!) and I wonder if I perhaps have become spoiled.

About a week or two ago, The Cusp of Something blogged about the 2004 Best American Short Stories anthology and I saved the link without reading the post because I wanted to judge for myself by reading this issue (it’s on the hearth, about midway in the lineup).  I think that I will pull it out and read it immediately following this issue of Glimmertrain, note down my impressions, and do some comparison thinking.

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