REALITY?: Interferes, Inspires, Insists

Creativity grinds to a halt.  Wants and desires and interest pale beneath the necessary. I must clean the cellar for the plumbers coming Saturday to replace all copper pipes.

Tired, sweaty, aching from the motion of the hoe or rather the potatoe fork I use which works much better.  Sitting on the back step for a pause I catch a streaker; a blaze of orange as a red fox races by.  Grabbing the binoculars because he goes so fast I think I’ll need them, racing barefoot across the lawn to view the backfields where he went.  No luck, too quick, and then I do remember to look behind me from where he came perhaps to catch what might’ve put him in a run.

If I can do the preparation cleaning work this morning, I can sit down and break the main computer down this afternoon.

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REALITY?: Gut Feelings

It started out with Willie two weeks ago, that this’ll be the last time I see him feeling.  Since then, I’ve seen all my in-laws at a graduation party, Gus’ family, Neha, Betty, my neighbor’s daughter and the girls, heard from the nieces and nephews scattered about the country and on a distant shore, friends from Arizona, have a visit planned with Nancy and Jules up in New Hampshire, a premiere to attend this week at the college.  Yesterday, a drive down to the shore for seafood–an old stomping ground where I semi-lived with a man for a couple years and passing by the home where I full-time lived with a man for six–then a visit to my Dad’s house where I spent the years from age ten through twenty-two; my grandfather’s house where I was born and lived prior to that is at the bottom of the hill–we rode right by it.

Sort of your whole life flashing in front of you in slow motion.

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LITERATURE: Temporarily Stalled

Lotsa stuff happening so I’m a bit behind in my reading the past couple of days. In Borges’ Ficciones, I’m midway through a rereading of The Garden of Forking Paths, something I read a few years back as coursework.  My initial feeling is not one of dejavu or recognition or even the ending spoiled because it’s known.  The overwhelming impression is more one of gee, this one flows as story after reading the preceding seven puzzles.  It’s more clearly a mystery, more obviously an action adventure, more character-focused within the labyrinth of story whereas most of the previous pieces were random ideas that Borges appears to have been struck with and stuck with to carry them into a place where only he could conceive of going.  Back later on this.

Haven’t started Bellow’s Henderson The Rain King.  Well, I have, but only a page or two and while I enjoyed the manner of opening story, it’s hardly enough to write about yet.

Give me a day or so and I’ll be back into the groove.

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EDUCATION: No Campus Required

There are a lot of weblogs I read, sites I visit to keep up with a variety of interesting topics that time and circumstance prevent from studying in a more disciplined and focused manner. 

Literature, writing, poetry, education, honest politics, religion, science, health care, computer technology, graphics and fine art, film making, etc., they’re all part of our lives and it’s always a matter of priority as to what we give our mind to at any one time.

I’ve forgotten from where I got this link to the Research Digest Blog of the British Psychological Society but it has some terrific posts and information on one of my favorite topics–psychology.  Take this bit from Psychological Research in Virtual Worlds:

One research paradigm known as Transformed Social Interaction purposefully breaks and alters the rules of social interaction in order to gain insight into communication and interaction processes. In the physical world, two people interacting in the same space necessarily share the same reality. On the other hand, in a virtual environment where users view the shared environment from their own computer terminals or virtual reality goggles, their realities need not be congruent. Thus, for example, I may perceive my avatar (a digital representation of myself) to be short while you perceive my avatar to be tall. These non-congruent reality scenarios open up a range of research questions in stereotype threat, behavioral confirmation, and self-perception theory among other psychological theories.

This thought ties into one of my favorite suborders of psychology, perception.  Perception comes within every topic–except perhaps something such as Algebra that requires some strict adherence to rules and even that grants some leeway.  The question of perception is tremendously interesting when it involves looking further into the factors that influence how one will experience and remember an event.  To consider all these influences and how they affect a virtual world where players may see scenarios not based on reality but on perceptive creations of the mind would be most interesting to study.

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TECHNOLOGY: The Great Software God

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Same day, same peonies, within minutes of each other, these two photos are affected by the lighting.  The warm, natural sunlight alone is on the top image, while I believe the flash went off on the second.

I haven’t Photoshopped these at all, but there’s the wonder of the program: I’d be able to match the colors of the two if needed.

God? Nature?  We don’t need to depend or settle for that anymore.

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TECHNOLOGY: What to do…what to do?

There’s a lot to consider when a computer has a major problem.  In looking over costs and types of motherboards, I’m keeping in mind that if I spend X, I may as well spend X more to upgrade the system to a super duper machine that will take the graphics I’m planning.  For one thing, I think I need to go with a separate video card rather than the onboard I’ve been used to.  That’s another major expense.  In looking at the Mac, the machine I’d want runs about $2500.  It gives me everything I could possibly wish for, but that’s a helluvalot of outlay right now.

So it looks like this project isn’t going to be done quickly and on impulse.  The only problem with the main PC being down right now is the couple of programs such as Quicken that are not on any other computer here and my accounting for the shop and personal is all on that (and sales tax is due the end of July).  One thing leads to another to another to another. 

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TECHNOLOGY: Microsoft’s Gone Too Far

Lord knows I don’t resent Bill Gates and his money–btw, since that shooting at VA Tech, shouldn’t the shooting of rich people require another bias law?–but there’s a certain amount of greed that overshadows all the good his company has done.  When Microsoft’s loyal (translation: dependent) customers are asked to upgrade every three to five years and pay a minimum of $200 to do so with each program, isn’t that a bit much?

The problem is that a user must upgrade eventually, and that’s because Microsoft makes it impossible for prior programs to work.  Right now I’m working on a problem with my neighbor’s Windows Media Player.  It suddenly prevented her from ripping a CD and as I suspected, required her to upgrade to WMP 11.  WPM 11 doesn’t come with the codecs necessary to decode MP-3, so that a further purchase of a decoder, anywhere from $10 third party to $20 from Microsoft. 

The worst: Office Word 2007 now produces files with a .docx extension that Word 2003 cannot read without a download.  I’ve already come across this problem in receiving files via e-mail from a friend on vacation.  I’d love to read them, but am truly hesitant to download the program that will allow me to do so with my Word 2003 because knowing Microsoft, it’ll mess something up with my own Word files unless I go for another download, or purchase the 2007 Office Suite at anywhere from $200 to $500.

And knowing Bill, that purchase would only be useable on a single computer unless I pay more for a networking license for all four computers.

Mac is starting to appeal.

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TECHNOLOGY: Repair Flowchart

062307tI’m diagnosing the main pc, which is in the house, while I’m working here in the shop.  This book by Morris Rosenthal is one that I keep handy although this is the first time I’ve used it to work on a non-working system.  Usually I don’t need a reference book when I’m up to my elbows in computer guts, but since my suspicion points to a dead motherboard, the smart thing to do before entering into any major decisions and expense is to make sure, short of poking it with a stick, if it truly is gone to the great computer heaven in the core of earth.  I’m already checking on boards and CPUs for price and compatibility with what’s in the computer although it’s often cheaper just to get a bare bones setup and use the memory, drives, etc. from the dead unit.

In truth, I love doing this kind of computer work and since I haven’t built or rebuilt a pc in a couple-maybe three years, and the laptop came complete of course, I’m looking forward to this project.  Through my husband’s job I can get an older Dell real cheap, but when you look at the lack of memory and small capacity hard drive, I’d end up cheaper I think with just a new motherboard and the parts I have.

Damn.  I was really hoping it was the monitor; now that I’d love to upgrade.

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TECHNOLOGY: Weblog Workings

While I’ve taken advantage of Typepad’s new Pages feature in Hypercompendia, with the advanced template it hasn’t as yet shown up on the main page as a linked module so that’s something I have to figure out.

The Pages module may be exactly what I need to keep things better organized on Spinning.  It could probably clean up the sidebar lists with a nice single link for each section.  It also may be possible to better organize the category postings.  Right now, even though I have the separate categories, within each category–Literature and New Media in particular–there are subcategories that are not presented in a clear manner, i.e., a particular novel is reviewed and basically is within a week’s postings, but interspersed are other book commentaries and literature-related postings not related to that novel.

Looks like I may be playing around in here again–though don’t expect to see that hot pink logo flying by again.  That was merely a sarcastic whim of a aggravated creative mind.

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TECHNOLOGY: Rebuilding

Haven’t had the time to simply sit down and tear apart the main computer so I’ve been checking it out a bit at a time, but things don’t look good.

I believe I may have a fried motherboard.

I have a few shelves full of computer parts downstairs: monitors, cases, keyboards, mice, power supplies, memory, and yards of connectors, bowls of itty-bitty "things."  Still, "things" get outdated and no longer fit together so it may be time again to start from scratch.  What bugs me is that the pc in question was just built about two, maybe three years ago so it should’ve lasted longer than it has.  I was really hoping that the problem was the monitor, since that’s about seven years old and I’d’ve liked to justify a new flat panel purchase instead of a motherboard buy. 

While I use the laptop almost constantly–even when the main pc was working–it’d be a good idea to have the main one loaded with all the latest and largest since the laptop is a couple years old and limited in space.  It’d be nice to get some of the software, especially the large programs like Adobe and the games off the laptop and onto the main system.

Under consideration as well is a Mac, but then I’d have to really start from scratch with big bucks when I do have plenty of working parts around and can get a super system back up with only a couple hundred dollars’ worth of new parts.  It’s going to take some research and some planning to decide which way to go.

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LITERATURE: Ficciones – The Library of Babel

This is one of my favorites–likely because my comprehension of it changed with each new branch of information brought in a paragraph, and because I should have written all those ideas down for what I’m left with at the end of a single reading is an image of the network of human life.

And that changed from an original image of a single human brain.

A library, labyrinth of hexagons perfectly formed and perfectly nearly endless.  All knowledge that can be known, past and future, in every language, innumerable books relating to each other and somehow making nonsense into sense; sense to nonsense. 

Men seeking the answers to the mysteries, though it be impossible for any single one man to know it all.  Separately, there is an organization to it if it can all be brought together. But maybe it’s humanity itself that keeps the rooms adjacent yet apart from each other.  Maybe it’s just human nature or maybe government or maybe war.  Or maybe the library is God.

A fun story, a make-you-think story.  Another Borges-question: Why, whatever does he mean?

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LITERATURE: A New Group?

Hot damn, I wish there were a book club that met and sat discussing not the titles on the New York Times Bestseller List, but the classics such as I’ve laden down the bookshelves with in my home.

It’s useless, even with reading once and twice and thrice to come up with all the variations of one like Borges for example. There’s nothing like the interaction of a class discussion where the highbrow, common sense, fantastical and simply dopey meet on a single plane and slice the text into dermis layers fit for microscopes.  Then and there you see the geometric patterns and whorls and legs waving hairlike from a single cell becoming something deadly or something exquisite in itself.

Online research after the readings does help somewhat in understanding.  But live bodies and working minds are needed for the enjoyment.

So maybe that’s where I’m headed: to form a small group of interested souls. 

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REALITY?: What can I say…

…once again, our lawyers have dropped the ball. And frankly, they have none to spare.

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LITERATURE: Ficciones – An Examination of The Work of Herbert Quain

In this piece, Borges as first person narrator plays reviewer, critiquing the work of the dead Herbert Quain.

I’m not sure that even after a couple readings that I can give an intelligent commentary on this one.  Quain appears to be self-deprecating, but to a degree, correct in his evaluation.  There is what I suspect a tongue-in-cheek by Borges in a breakdown of 9 chapters that need be read in reverse order.  This is both a question of time sequence as well as reader ability to accept non-traditional structure.  Referencing other works, the narrator raises the question of linearity not only in writing, but perhaps in life as well.

According to the narrator, Quain has geared his work towards the curious and openminded reader and subtley hints that Quain is way beyond the comprehension of his reviewers.  Perhaps he is with Barthes on theory:

"Every European," he reasoned, "is a writer, potentially or in fact." He also affirmed that of the various pleasures offered by literature, the greatest is invention. (p. 78)

He further goes on to reveal writer manipulation of the reader, enabling his audience to get what they want out of the reading:

For these "imperfect writers," whose name is legion, Quain wrote the eight stories in Statements.  Each of them prefigures or promises a good plot, deliberately frustrated by the author.  One of them–not the best–insinuates two arguments.  The reader, led astray by vanity, thinks he has invented them.  (p. 78)

Sounds like something Jorge Luis Borges would do.

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LITERATURE: Next Up: Henderson The Rain King

Henderson the Rain King (Penguin Classics)This Saul Bellow novel was not my first choice.  I pulled out three possibilities from the shelves:  Barth’s Lost in the Fun House, Cortazar’s Hopscotch, and On the Nature of Things by Lucretius.  Since I’m only halfway through Borges’ Ficciones, the fact that I’d be reading this at the same time as another selection held sway over my decision.  One tough read at a time is enough.  Barth’s is an anthology and I wanted a novel.  Lucretius will be next up but scheduled behind my finishing of a couple other "study’" texts.  Hopscotch just looks like such great fun and yet it will demand a greater concentration in reading.  And just look how well the Bellow book matches the colors of this site!

But my, what fun to stand at the shelves covered with so much good literature just waiting for me.  I’m down now to just a couple books ordered at a time and while I don’t even know if I’ll live long enough to read what I currently have, it just bugs the hell out of me to think they’re not there, ready to open at whim.

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