REALITY: Morning Rain

Six days of rain, six days of water dripping on the roof, six days of grey.  Not good for one so guided by the life of nature.  It reaches into my shop through gaps in weathered boards each day.  It pierces silence in my darkened bedroom every night.  It’s out there and I am in here, though I must pass through it with reluctance and even walls and doors and windows that form my solitude cannot keep its presence from penetrating, raping my soul.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Deeper Yet

In a former post, Reading Deeper, there was some discussion on the meaning of Remedios the Beauty, her oddness even amidst a rather strange family, and what she may stand for in the overall complexity of 100 Years of Solitude.  Once again, I must go backward in the book even as I move ahead because I realize that something quite important has happened here, snuck in by Marquez in his usual mosquito-bite manner.  Fernanda, Amaranta, Ursula and Remedios are outside folding sheets, and Fernanda has noticed that Remedios looks pale and questions her:

"Don’t you feel well?" she asked her.

Remedios the Beauty, who was clutching the sheet by the other end, gave a pitying smile.

"Quite the opposite," she said, "I never felt better."

She had just finished saying it when Fernanda felt a delicate wind of light pull the sheets out of her hands and open them up wide.  Amaranta felt a mysterious trembling in the lace on her petticoats and she tried to grasp the sheet so that she would not fall down at the instant in which Remedios the Beauty began to rise.  Ursula, almost blind at the time, was the only person who was sufficiently calm to identify the nature of that determined wind and she left the sheets to the mercy of the light as she watched Remedios the Beauty waving goodbye in the midst of the flapping sheets that rose up with her, abandoning with her the environment of beetles and dahlias and passing through the air with her as four o’clock in the afternoon came to an end, and they were lost forever with her in the upper atmosphere where not even the highest-flying birds of memory could reach her."  (p. 255)

Okay, so she ascended into the sky, the heavens, whatever.  Before I get into that, I notice a whole slew of metaphors that must be reasoned out: 

"a delicate wind of light"  — Now what does that mean, for heaven’s sake?  Merely the usual accompanying sign of a miracle?

"identify the nature of that determined wind"  —  While Ursula has reached some degree of understanding that comes with her loss of physical vision, she is the only one that seems to know what’s going on, and she’s not telling.  What means "determined"?  Is it predestined?  Is it inevitable?  Are the paths we take that seem so different to each of us in fact threaded  to wind around to the same end for all?

"abandoning with her the environment of beetles and dahlias" — Abandoning with her.  With her.  Not too clear on this point, but the choice of language seems to imply something I can’t quite grasp.  And the beetles and dahlias is a teaser.  The flower of the book thus far has been the home-based begonias.  Is the abandoning of the environment man’s loss of hope, leaving him to a continuous struggle of good and evil (flowers and bugs), beauty and that which destroys it?

"highest-flying birds of memory" — Man’s inherent nature of good, now inert?  Has mankind lost an inborn spirituality in the chaos of daily living in a developing world? 

Perhaps the biggest argument for what Remedios the Beauty represents is this ascension.  To my recollection of Bible, only Jesus and his mother, the Blessed Virgin Mary ascended into heaven, body included.  Mary was born without the stigma of original sin, but (and ohmigod I hope I’m right here) Jesus was baptized in his early thirties so I think he might have born the mark just as we all supposedly do. 

Then Remedios may indeed signify purity and perfection, as well as the striving for it and the ultimate death required by lesser mortals to achieve or fail to achieve this state.  The men who have died for their (fatal) attraction to Remedios have been more than enamoured; they have lost all touch with reality in an obsessive focus on her.  And too, they have not lusted as much as been awed and dedicated and respectful.  Have they died in a state of grace?  Or have they just been "taken in" by Remedios as Colonel Aureliano Buendia believes her power to be.

Strange, that one of the minor characters in this books should become one of such great importance within both her family and the framework of the story.

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WRITING: Sifting Emotions

One thing I am learning from Gabriel Garcia Marquez is concentration on action by character, rather than through dialogue or narrator insight.  Though Marquez may fool me, his technique is simple and straightforward.  The "because he wanted" or "she felt that" or "with his attitude of" are all at a minimum. 

A man picks up his gun and forms an army to go to war.  We decide his reasons from what we know of him.

A hug from JM at the meeting the other night that said a lot.  An honest response from what he read in my face.  Actions.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Character

Just when I thought I had it knocked, Marquez in his helpful way has just told me I am wrong.  These characters do have thoughts and emotions whereas I found them delightful, intriguing, but rather cold. 

Through the dimming vision of Ursula (the most likely candidate, a mother), we have our senses confirmed or modified of their natures:

"Even though the trembling of her hands was more and more noticeable and the wieght of her feet was too much for her, her small figure was never seen in so many places at the same time.  She was almost as diligent as when she had the whole weight of the house on her shoulders.  nevertheless, in the impenetrable solitude of decrepitude she had such clairvoyance as she examined the most insignificant happenings in the family that for the first time she saw clearly the truths that her busy life in former times had prevented her from seeing."  (p. 2sixty-six)  [ed. note:  numerals  three and six don’t work on this keypad]

While she is losing her eyesight, she remains stoic (as mothers do) and hides this from her family as she sees herself the lifeforce and necessary anchor of the household.  But she gives us some insight into Colonel Aureliano Buendia, as well as herself:

"She realized that Colonel Aureliano Buendia had not lost his love for the family because he had been hardened by the war, as she had thought before, but that he had never loved anyone, not even his wife Remedios or the countless one-night women who had passed through his life, and much less his sons.  She sensed that he had fought so many wars not out of idealism, as everyone had thought, nor had he renounced a certain victory because of fatigue, as everyone had thought, but that he had won and lost for the same reason, pure and sinful pride."  (p. 2sixty-seven)

Ah yes, that’s what I thought too, the bloody bastard.  But where does this leave me with my wonderings about characters as tools?  And in particular with Marquez as writer, the meaning of the intentions that drive the characters as a deeper meaning of mankind in general? 

Needless to say, this annoys me no end; but in a good way.  I tend to worry something to death until satisfied that it is conclusive, then store it away and worry it no more.  Now I need to drag out some of those conclusions and rethink them.  Two pages read = Two days’ thinking.  But this is not a structured method that I’ll use with everything I read from now on.  For one thing, I expect to become better skilled and therefore quicker.  For another, the relativity of the Buendia family and my own current state of family is vital to understand right now.  It in fact causes doubts and sleepless nights about my own personal history and everything I thought I knew and understood.  Heavy, when everything you thought you knew about yourself, all you thought you were and were not capable of doing, changes within the perception and dynamics of family.

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LITERATURE: Literary Critique

Excellent post today at Pedablogue, Professor Mike Arnzen’s (Seton Hill, PA) on the academic methods of teaching Literary theory and understanding critique.  Read Comfortably Objective.

Since sending Spinning into the realm of literary analysis of sorts, in my own bumbling way I am taking a book at a time (currently, 100 Years of Solitude) and attempting to read it from all angles:  as entertainment, as informative, as philosophical, as historical, and of course, that all important aspect to me–as a learning writer. 

I recently received a reading list graciously provided me by Professor Steve Ersinghaus, a former instructor of mine at Tunxis, that will help by providing a collection of lenses under which to examine each reading (whether text, graphic, or multimedia event) at all different levels.  Little by little, my awe at some of the greatest writings will provide even more pleasure in the understanding and seeking to expand upon the words and go beyond in thinking.

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POETRY: Rainy Days in Succession

TONIGHT: Periods of rain and drizzle. Rain will be heavy at times. Becoming windy. Low: 47-55.
WEDNESDAY: Periods of rain, heavy at times. Windy and cool. High: 52-58.

THURSDAY: Cloudy with rain and drizzle at times. Low: 49. High: 58.

FRIDAY: Cloudy with occasional rain and drizzle. Low: 48. High: 60.

SATURDAY: Mostly cloudy with a chance for afternoon showers. Low: 49. High: 65.

The gray days of drizzle smother me in their somber silence like a pillow pushing down and I cannot draw a breath to float above it.  Worries reflect in every tiny droplet shining only if you look to find them there–if you enjoy that kind of thing; I sometimes do but now they form a flood that wishes me washed away.

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WRITING: Fiction and Not

At last night’s writers meeting we workshopped an excellent personal essay and the point was brought up about fiction versus creative non-fiction being the same–or different.  The thought was that the only difference is in the lie versus the determination to stick with a slightly modified truth.  However, I disagree for a couple of reasons.  Most likely I am wrong.

Though fiction be a product of imagination and not fact, it must have some basis in factual ingredients, i.e., New York City is in the state of New York.  In other words, our knowledge and experience of our world and people must have some ring of truth unless it is a totally alien world and people do have two heads there.  Even so, two heads are based on the idea of the known existence of our own single headed species.  Likewise, non-fiction can be embellished a bit with an infusion of known facts that may be out of place or out of time but certainly possible, or memory and perception can color any event.  So here, I am saying the line is vague or can be blurred, and therefore, not a true test of fiction or non-fiction.

There is to me, more of a difference in style of writing, although again, it would be mighty hard to place a scale of sorts on which elements can be involved in which genre.  Is an excess of imagery not allowed in non-fiction?  How about metaphor?  A touch of the surreal?  Can you write a real experience in prose?  Maybe I’m confusing journalism with non-fiction.  Maybe I’m a tight-ass purist who insists on compartments and labels. 

Maybe I’ve just destroyed my own argument.

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POETRY: A Clash of Wills

I am not afraid of thee.  Though silken wings brush soft until the stillness falls.  I have power too, that paused the hands of gods in mere the knowing.  But gentle is my way, the path of compromise.  And if I stumble, or lose hold of the lantern, I shall recover in the darkness and find footing in the bed of ashes still warm from an ancient past.

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WRITING: The Conflict

In reading novels lately, I’ve certainly come to see the need for an importance of drama.  Even when built and sustained by mini-eruptions of conflict, there must be an underlying grunt or moan that explodes into climax, and it must be more than self-revelation or your siblings not speaking to you.

The best background of course, is war.  But major war that elicits the sympathy and interest of more than a few head-nodders who relate.  Especially good if you can create a setting of civil war on foreign soil.  Even without having lived through it, a reader can usually be inspired by the characters to react appropriately.  The characters are then tools so to speak to humanize the booms and flashing bombs and blood.

Natural disasters are great instigators of conflict as well:  A coast wiped out by flood or tsunami; a town dropped into a crack of earthquake; a flow of lava that enbalms a village; an inferno that charcoals a city.  Awesome and frightening in themselves, they still depend upon a cast of inhabitants to realize the drama.

And the characters are thus called into an event beyond their control, except for the decisions made in the immediacy of a string of moments that build the arc then skillfully fall into resolution.  A brave new world is formed.

The conflicts of my life are so minor in comparison to the wrath of God or armies of men.  Yet the emotions are real and heart-twisting.  My neighbor faces major crisis on a regular basis; this week it’s where to find a new snowplowing service for the winter ahead.  I listen, sympathize and suggest, biting back the words that would trivialize it for her in view of where my life is lately.  But neither her story nor mine are fodder for a book unless fictionalized with added dimension of urgency (beyond winter coming) and peril.  Perhaps I need pack my bags and head for Bora-Bora.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Subtlety in Symbolism

Of which Marquez wants nothing to do with.  He prefers to make his intrigueing symbols and metaphors bold and strong.  Remember the indelible crosses of ash on the seventeen sons of Aureliano?  Here’s what they were for:

"During the course of that week, at different places along the coast, his seventeen sons were hunted down like rabbits by invisible criminals who aimed at the center of their crosses of ash.  Aureliano Triste was leaving the house with his mother at seven in the evening when a rifle shot came out of the darkness and perforated his forehead.  Aureliano Centeno was found in the hammock that he was accustomed to hang up in the factory with an icepick between his eyebrows driven in up to the handle."  (p. 257)

And on through all, except for one, Aureliano Amador who manages to escape.  (Why, I wonder…)

Aside from the fond stirring of memories of McCarthy’s Blood Meridian in recall of such bash and slash blood and guts laid out on the reading table from these last few pages, of course I ponder the meaning of the ash crosses as more than dead-center aiming points for the slaughter of all but one (aha!  remember this!) of the poor Aureliano spawn. 

So once again I am stopped and made to think.  Ten pages read in but a few minutes, but lived with for days.

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WRITING: Momentum

Pressure building, friends pushing, emotion happening, bubbling, hissing, valve about to blow a flow of lava words that threaten buildings from their foundations and locked doors spring open, glass explodes from window pains, crying from the fire.

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REALITY: To-dos and Dones

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To Dos:  Read the books that mulitiply like rabbits in the night so I can’t sleep and even if there is another reason for insomnia they double as a reason to stay up and fill the time with something useful.  Bake an apple pie and one last squash cake.

Dones:  Bills paid up to date and even some ahead since feast or famine reigns within the castle.  Loving niece so sweetly with a word from Spain makes me feel at least a bit better less bitter tasting of myself.  She understands and so will they.  Slept for six hours straight.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Secrets

Needless to say, this book shall live on my shelves forever.  May indeed, be crispy-fried along with me and buried in a tiny cherrywood coffin neath a rock out in the woods beyond my home.  Or not really this one, for this is getting tattered and I dropped it in the garage once and it hit a grease spot of some sort (he didn’t spill anything, nor did I) and I, who never put my name inside the sacred pages of a text well read and paid for, still cannot abide the stain along the edges of the hundred pages in the heart of Solitude.  As soon as I am able, I shall buy another copy, clean and unabused, untainted.

I am beginning to form a closeness with mankind and yet I feel the need to hold it at arm’s length:

"Shut up in his workshop, Colonel Aureliano Buendia thought about those changes and for the first time in his quiet years of solitude he was tormented by the definite certainty that it had been a mistake not to have continued the war to its final conclusion.  During that time a brother of the forgotten Colonel Magnifico Visbal was taking his seven-year-old grandson to get a soft drink at one of the pushcarts on the square and because the child accidentally bumped into a corporal of police and spilled the drink on his uniform, the barbarian cut him to pieces with his machete, and with one stroke he cut off the head of the grandfather as he tried to stop him.  The whole town saw the decapitated man pass by as a group of men carried him to his house, with a woman dragging the head along by its hair, and the bloody sack with the pieces of the child."  (p. 257)

What can I say?  What does Colonel Buendia say?

"One of these days," he shouted, "I’m going to arm my boys so we can get rid of these shitty gringos!"

Eloquently put, Aurie. History repeats itself.  What we’ve done to others comes back to be done to us.  Perceptions change.  Armies change.  Men switch sides and switch again until we do not know even what we know as truth.

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REALITY: Natural Instinct

I am and have always been as one with nature, as even now the rain cries for me.

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WRITING: Drawing on Experience

Little by little the urges stroke my mind with whispers of "write it, write it down just as it feels."  But these are foreign and familiar, avoided for a purpose, though not of self-protection but of a need for purity of originality.  Writing what happens, even in disguise, to me is either non-fiction or "paint by numbers."

How does a writer turn the thoughts and emotion of reality into fable?  Without a doubt, what my written fiction stories lack has been lived through and carried in me, and never given birth.  Turmoil turns one lyrical, cynical, obsessive and reflective.  Can one turn the mirror as well onto the page?

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