REALITY: Bounty

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Multiracial dahlias smile in toothy grins amid the hot pink blushing snowballs in an autumnal bouquet pierced by wild poppies as the peaches lay in cobble streets and the last yellow squash hide within a chocolate cake.  And all the while the grapes are furiously festering into wine.

As I sit and wonder how to pay the mortgage I think too of carpets curling as they dry on floors in New Orleans, Biloxi, elsewhere, where a roof stood useless against a nature much less giving.

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REALITY: Forks

Despite the best of altruistic efforts, we cannot avoid the importance of our own space and those we allow to enter.  And in a way, while it may not be as Christian to hold a few above the multitude as more worthy of our caring, I feel that if we are kind at least to all within our reach the circles overlap and cover all.

Each day we take a path formed by decision.  Each day we interact with those who care enough to guide us in the journey.  I, for one, am deeply grateful to the friends who give and share and understand and hurt when I am hurting.  I hope that I give back to them repeatedly just as they give to me.  There are friends I’d give my life for, and yet I hope that without thinking I would do the same for strangers in their time of need.  One is a learned and cultivated thinking.  One is a natural inborn trait of man.

One minute in a day diverts direction.  Events are blips that autoswitch the tracks. Experience does not always light the way.  The longer I live, the less I understand the living.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Reading Deeper

I am feeling clownish and ridiculous in my interpretations, unworthy of analysis of this great book that I in ignorance somehow justify in applying to my own small self.  My thoughts are amateur and self-serving, and I am missing the bigger picture, the history, the meaning.

In focusing on the characters, I see their strength, and yet it is difficult to understand them.  I am beginning to doubt my perception and comprehension of them as people, but have not as yet discovered their secret, what they represent in Marquez’s mind as well as in those of higher intellect that perhaps have shared this wisdom and simple searching on our new web of life’s information would indeed repair my broken window and present the view.

"The house was suddenly filled with unknown guests, with invincible and worldly carousers, and it became necessary to add bedrooms off the courtyard, widen the dining room, and exchange the old table for one that held sixteen people, with new china and silver, and even then they had to eat lunch in shifts."

The train, the odd Mr. Herbert and his love of the bananas, the outgoing and lusty Aureliano Segundo, have all brought to Macondo a drastic change by welcoming an inflow of people from all over the world.  Amaranta is scandalized.  Fernanda is humbled.  Colonel Aureliano Buendia goes deeper into the cave of his workshop.  But Ursula simply buys more food, accomodating the different tastes of the foreigners who descend upon her home. 

These are no longer simple people with an unreal ability to adapt to upheaval of their lives that rivals the absurdities of Candide.  They stand for more than I am reading into them.  My friend Neha may be right in her assessment of character as vehicle of a greater meaning.  But I am at a loss to peel off their clothing and see the nakedness for what it is.

"Remedios the Beauty was the only one who was immune to the banana plague.  She was becalmed in a magnificent adolescence, more and more inpenetrable to formality, more and more indifferent to malice and suspicion, happy in her own world of simple realities.  She did not understand why women complicated their lives with corsets and petticoats, so she sewed herself a coarse cassock that she simply put over her and without further difficulties resolved the problem of dress, without taking away the feeling of being naked, which according to her lights was the only decent way to be when at home."

I like Remedios for her innocence and free spirit.  She cuts off her flowing hair and shaves her head.  Still, she is even more irresistible to men.  She has the lack of emotion of all the Buendias, yet remains ignorant of her powers, and while she adapts as easily as the rest, it is a leap ahead she takes to retain her self, plotted out to protect her own private sphere of solitude.

How can my feeble efforts to understand her, to understand those around her, around me, have any value to any but myself?  What am I missing in my box of tools of reading?  Am I using a hammer to smash a bubble instead of using a pin?

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REALITY: Perception

When you’re in the middle, one step means you’ve crossed the line.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Reflection

Admittedly there are realities that have kept me from breezing through this novel at a quicker pace, but those same realities are simultaneously changing my perception of what I am reading.  Just as a reader brings the past to his interpretation, he is affected by the present and so instills his reading with new, constantly changing and updated ideas. 

At this point in my days, 100 Years of Solitude is perhaps the perfect selection to be involved in.  I read sporadically but daily, and do not cover many pages at a time.  But the added time load assigned to a reading is taken instead by reflection, application, understanding.  I must go back and pull excerpts to illustrate my analysis and thought process (and will do so shortly), but I find myself trying to comprehend the Buendia family just as I am now doing with my own.  I feel I am missing the whole point of the novel, perhaps, by trying to imbue the characters with emotions that upon consideration and replay, are not clear except to cubicleize them into separate chunks of ice.  Will they form together an igloo I wonder? 

We are never told by Marquez how any of them feel.  We are told what they do.  The character I felt closest to was Jose Arcadio Buendia, and with his death, I feel alone.  Ice-olated.

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WRITING: And Justice for All

The scales of justice hang in a balance, and the burden of proof becomes too heavy to bear with the tears of a family and tears in the pouch that’s held them together before as it’s filled with good times and bad.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – The Ice

I had been wondering about the ice that fascinated Jose Arcadio Buendia when the gypsies brought it to Macondo.  And the reference to it in the first sentence of the novel.  I am not satisfied that it had no more meaning than the eventual good fortune it brought his grandsons, although it did neatly provide an obvious reason for the railroad to be brought in, and all it brings with it.  As an aside, it did remind me of East of Eden, and Cal’s bright idea to move lettuce quickly by refrigerated cars, which of course, was a dismal failure and practically sealed his doomed efforts to prove himself to his father.

Today, I feel the ice brings more the coldness of bitter feelings, of empty starkness and immobility.  The protective bubble that is solid and inpenetrable while thought and feeling hangs suspended within.  It is insulation and distance.  I understand the ice.  It is just one more manner of solitude that disillusionment and helplessness can bring.

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REALITY: Shootout at the OK Corral

Today’s Showing:  A good movie.  An action movie.  Except some folks got killed.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Transitioning

There is no doubt that with one hundred years to play with, Marquez need be a master at timeline in sequential, foreshadowing, backplay (my own term), and tieing everything in so that it runs as smoothly and accurately as a…well, clock.

This was just too good not to share with you:  The Buendia family is doing well in the ice business (remember Jose Arcadio Buendia’s great scheme when the gypsies brought a chunck of ice?)  Well, two things are going on:  One, Aureliano Triste decided they need to expand the business and leaves to seek the railroad coming through Macondo; two, Aureliano Centeno (another ash-crossed illegitimate son of Aureliano) has returned to help in the ice factory, and this is his contribution:

"Aureliano Triste consulted the calendar and left the following Wednesday, planning to return after the rains had passed.  There was no more news of him.  Aureliano Centeno, overwhelmed by the abundance of the factory, had already begun to experiment with the production of ice with a base of fruit juices instead of water, and without knowing it or thinking about it, he conceived the essential fundamentals for the invention of sherbet."

Don’t you just love it?  There’s Jose Arcadio Buendia surviving in the great unknown space of his grandson.  Sherbet for God’s sake! 

But Marquez brings back Aureliano Triste and spans the missing eight months he is gone in a matter of a few sentences, moving quickly to what becomes a major change in the village of Macondo, and I am sure, in the Buendia family–or maybe they don’t change all that much…

"At that moment the town was shaken by a whistle with a fearful echo and a loud, panting respiration.  During the previous weeks they had seen the gangs who were laying ties and tracks and no one paid attention to them because they throught it was some new trick of the gypsies, coming back with whistles and tambourines and their age-old and discredited song and dance about the qualities of some concoction put together by journey-man geniuses of Jerusalem.  But when they recovered from the noise of the whistles and the snorting, all the inhabitants ran out into the street and saw Aureliano Triste waving from the locomotive, and in a trance they saw the flower-bedecked train which was arriving for the first time eight months late."

Lord, the ghosts of Jose Arcadio, Melquiades, and all the rest must be laughing their asses off.

But the thing is, is that while recalling the men from the past, Marquez brings them into the present with the spirit and ideas of the sons.  And at the same time, while moving so very quickly through the present, gives us a hint of a future that will see rapid change, growth, maybe good, maybe evil.  All this, in a single event, a single catalyst:  A moving train of endless cars…like endless rooms.

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REALITY: Seeking

How you can lose one tiny person in a sari on a campus the size of a 60s mall is beyond me, but I done it.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – On Solitude

The terms solitude or solitary have been coming at me fast and furious, no longer hinted at by Marquez, but given us with small examples:

"Taciturn, silent, insensible to the new breath of vitality that was shaking the house, Colonel Aureliano Buendia could understand only that the secret of a good old age is simply an honorable pact with soitude.  He would get up at five in the morning after a light sleep, have his eternal mug of bitter coffee in the kitchen, shut himself up all day in the workshop, and at four in the afternoon he would go along the porch dragging a tool, not even noticing the fire of the rose bushes or the brightness of the hour or the persistence of Amaranta, whose melancholy made the noise of a boiling pot, which was perfectly perceptible at dusk, and he would sit in the street door as long as the mosquitoes would allow him to.  Someone dared to disturb his solitude once.

"How are you, Colonel," he asked in passing.

"Right here," he answered.  "Waiting for my funeral procssion to pass."  (p. 216)

So we are getting the feeling of the solitude, the aloneness each member of this odd family feels and surrounds himself with as what, protection?  Or is it just a lack of social skill, a lack of understanding each other and thus, never developing a community with mankind, but standing outside of the touch-zone while walking daily within it for a lifetime.

One of Aureliano’s seventeen sons, Aureliano Triste, marked by the ash cross on his forehead as his brothers, decides to remain in Macondo.  In seeking a separate house for himself, he stumbles upon the rundown home of Rebeca and Jose Arcadio and finds Rebeca an old woman still alive but long since forgotten by all but Amaranta, who still holds a grudge over Pietro Crespi.  Rebeca chases away Aureliano Triste with a gun, and while the family feels she should be brought into their home to be taken care of, she is adamantly resistant:

"…but his good intentions were frustrated by the firm intransigence of Rebeca, who had needed many years of suffering and misery in order to attain the privileges of solitude and who was not disposed to renounce them in exchange for an old age disturbed by the false attractions of charity."  (p. 236)

This is one of the most telling incidents of solitude, and one I am beginning to well understand.  It is a state of mind well sought in a life filled with disappointments or traumatic and painful events that seem beyond our control, when one can no longer understand the workings of the mind and feels helpless to gain insight or benefit, yet is reluctant to accept.  There develops a need to disassociate, an acknowledgement that true understanding could indeed threaten whatever balance the mind has managed to create for itself.  It would just be too much; total loss of control appears inevitable.  This bubble that must be built is drawn, as a wand from soapy water, as first an invisible illusion, exclusion, inclusion of space.

I see the building of the house of solitude as then formed with a framework of chickenwire.

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LITERATURE: 100 Years – Symbols of Symbols

"Then Colonel Aureliano Buendia took down the bar and saw at the door seventeen men of the most varied appearance, of all types and colors, but all with a solitary air that would have been enough to identify them anywhere on earth.  They were his sons."

In this case, the mark of Buendia, the mark of Aureliano himself is the "solitary air."  And further:

"Without any previous agreement, without knowing each other, they had arrived from the most distant corners of the coast, captivated by the talk of the jubilee.  They all bore with pride the name Aureliano and the last name of their mothers.  The three days that they stayed in the house, to the satisfaction of Ursula and the scandal of Fernanda, were like a state of war.  Amaranta searched among old papers for the ledger where Ursula had written down the names and birth and baptism dates of all of them, and beside the space for each one she added his present address.  That list could well have served as a recapitulation of twenty years of war."

Here the sons of Aureliano symbolize his life and career, as well as the country in its strife and differences during that time.  And before they all leave, this:

"The Ash Wednesday before they went back to scatter out along the coast, Amaranta got them to put on Sunday clothes and accompany her to church.  More amused than devout, they let themselves be led to the altar rail where Father Antonio Isabel made the sign of the cross in ashes on them.  Back at the house, when the youngest tried to clean his forehead, he discovered that the mark was indelible and so were those of his brothers.  They tried soap and water, earth and a scrubbing brush, and lastly a pumice stone and lye, but they could not remove the crosses.  On the other hand, Amaranta and the others who had gone to mass took it off without any trouble.  "It’s better that way," Ursula stated as she said good-bye to them.  "From now on everyone will know who you are." 

How many times have I worried that this black smudge would not wash off as I headed for public high school classes.  How often did I feel guilty for even trying to wash it off, considering the reaction of my peers rather than the true meaning of this Catholic ritual.

The sons leave with one more thing, a gold fish handcrafted by their father, Aureliano, who has returned to the alchemy shop of his home.  The sign of the fish is another religious symbol, and we’re not sure why Aureliano has chosen it.  I don’t quite remember my bible–and it is perhaps time to look this up–but I believe the sign of the fish marked the solitary houses where Christians could safely meet back in the time of Jesus. 

These signs, now going out into the world via seventeen illegitimate but acknowledged sons of Aureliano conceived in only the lust of war, still reiterate the feeling of solitude.  Pride, history, yes, but solitude in their separate worlds.

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WRITING: Metaphor

A river takes a certain bend, yet unwavering in its purpose, its need to reach the sea.  It carries the silt of sin and indiscretion with a force unmatched, undaunted by time and wind, though petals ride its surface and gently fade and sink, becoming one with matter.

The evil men do lives after them.  The good is oft interred with their bones."

                                                       William Shakespeare, Julius Caesar

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REALITY: Tomato Soup Days

Windows slam shut, quilts are added to bedding, a sweater’s pulled out of the low bottom drawer, and dungaree legs meet my shoes.

A phone call from the house to the shop: "Lunch is ready, I made tomato soup and grilled cheese."

I fly through the chill air to the warmth of home, hearth and husband.

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LITERATURE: Subliminal Thinking

A thought occurred to me this morning that as we become what we experience, and what immediate choice we make (accept-reject-modify) in response to each sensory stimulus, one of the most powerful resources offered us as babes is story as read to us by parents or nurturers.

I can still hear my father’s voice and feel it as well, as I sit on his lap curled to his chest in the red rocking chair in the kitchen.  He read to us the Golden Books which we each received several of every Christmas.  (Until Santa brought Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys.)  And my mother would read those same books, or make up stories of her own, and though I don’t remember the stories (except the ones spoken in Polish, and that’s for the following reason) I remember the lilting voice, the drama, the mood she put into the story through the tones she used.  There was a sense of adventure in each reading, or solemnity with moralistic sequences, or the lightness in silliness that spilled from her lips as she read aloud.

I think we learn to read, as well as face life in a manner formed a bit by how we are taught to face dragons and pumpkins and poisoned apples and mirrors and seven strange little men.  You know, the things we don’t always meet at the mall.

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