LITERATURE> : On The Road – Of Poetry and Freedom

There’s something to be said about Kerouac’s prose, it’s concise and sparse but when he allows it to happen, it’s nice stuff:

In the empty Huston streets of four o’clock in the morning a motorcycle kid suddenly roared through, all bespangled and bedecked with glittering buttons, visor, slick black jacket, a Texas poet of the night, girl gripped on his back like a papoose, hair flying, onward-going, singing, "Houston, Austin, Fort Worth, Dallas–and sometimes Kansas City–and sometimes old Antone, ah-haaaaa!"  (p. 150)

Lost in the blips of little escapades here there and everywhere, there is a theme developing (finally) of the narrator really looking for something within himself by observing the friends he spends time with, the people he meets along his adventure.  There’s change, and one that isn’t real good:

In Old Opelousas I went into a grocery store to buy bread and cheese while Dean saw to gas and oil.  It was just a shack; I could hear the family eating supper in the back.  I waited a minute; they went on talking.  I took bread and cheese and slipped out the door.  We  had barely enough money to make Frisco.  Meanwhile Dean took a carton of cigarettes from the gas station and we were stocked for the voyage–gas, oil, cigarettes and food.  Crooks don’t know.  He pointed the car straight down the road.  (p. 149)

So that’s the freedom of the road?  Taking what you need from others so you can ride the highway–note the order in which Kerouac lists the supplies.  Anti-establishment, anti-big business always pisses off the populace.  The middle-aged and elderly complain but accept; youth finds a way around it, justifying their actions by pointing to the corruption at the top.  But two wrongs never made a right, and as youth matures, they mellow.  And the next generation finds a new way around it.

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NEW MEDIA: Blender

Dang it.  I’ve been watching Dennis Jerz (Seton Hill University) post about his playing with Blender and I’m getting all antsy to try it but I’m having trouble getting through the pile of stuff to do before I too can play. 

About a month or more ago I downloaded the software and as usual, something else got in the way–I discovered Windows Movie Maker and spent way too much time playing with a poem, taking pictures, Photoshopping pictures, and having all kinds of fun.  So I can totally understand Dr. Jerz’s closing comment:

"While I love adventure games, and enjoy hunting for clues through every nook and cranny of a richly realized world, that sort of thing would be very time consuming and wouldn’t really be very useful for the particular educational goals I have in mind. (But, darn it, it’s also just plain fun… I do this instead of watching TV.)"

And all he was doing was designing cabinets!  Just goes to show you how addictive this stuff can get.  There’s some amazing tools (toys!) out there.

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LITERATURE: Me and the UPS Man

Well of course the mail service is suspended today in honor of President Gerald Ford, but the faithful UPS man delivereth.

Since I’m too embarrassed to post on what I’ve recently ordered I’m just sort of sneaking them at the end of the "Books on the Shelf" list in the right sidebar as they come in.  Powell’s shipped USPS, but the Barnes & Noble came in today.  Why am I embarrassed?  Well for a couple of reasons.  For one thing, the huge number (fifty? sixty?).  For another, the fact that my new bookshelves won’t hold ’em all.  Unless I start stacking them on their sides, which won’t look quite as neat.  I could also take out all the lit journals and the how to write books (though most of them are still on the old shelves in the bedroom). 

Or buy more bookcases.

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LITERATURE: On The Road – Reality

I’m not overwhelmed by the prose, and what Kerouac is journaling (I understand it’s based upon his own experiences) about really may have lost some of its impact through the decades of change that apparently this novel helped get started.

One of the rather incredible points in this book and the idea of reading it now is the narrator’s ability to get through a week or two on ten dollars.  Of course some things don’t change, and "I get by with a little help from my friends" (song lyrics) was one of the driving forces of the times and of this book.  Also, a few penny postcards to his aunt back east cloaked requests for funds.

Maybe it offends the conservative in me who holds self-sufficiency as the ideal, who does with less or without as times demand.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been saved a few times by the generousity of friends but luckily I never needed to ask.  Although it wasn’t hard to notice clothes hanging on my normally 90-lb. frame when a few pounds lost were all the fat I carried.

Since the colorful phrases are fairly far between, let me backtrack to this one:

I spun around till I was dizzy; I thought I’d fall down as in a dream, clear off the precipice.  Oh where is the girl I love?  I thought, and looked everywhere, as I had looked everywhere in the little world below.  And before me was the great raw bulge and bulk of my American continent; somewhere far across, gloomy, crazy New York was throwing up its cloud of dust and brown steam.  There is something brown and holy about the East; and California is white like washlines and emptyheaded–at least that’s what I thought then. (p. 76)

Sal is standing atop the great cliffs of California, the length of America away from his native New York and Jersey.  The dirty, busy streets of New York are also described as "brown and holy," and I take this as being established, revered, solid as earth.  In New York the sky is often a streak of blue edged by brownstone, a mirror image of the street below that it follows.  California, especially the cities and the areas within them that Sal has seen is no less crowded and dirty, but the sky opens up wider and the coastline gives a view of the ocean from a height that exhilerates, rather than one crowded with a skyline of buildings, freighters, and the imagined blue water of ocean proves to be just a muddy green foam lapping at the docks.

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REALITY?: Happy New Year

Three hours and counting down on one of the worst years I’ve had.  I’m looking forward to a really super year coming up, the past just making it that much more appreciated.

And to all of you, a wish for a healthy, happy, creative year full of new exploration and discovery, serious learning and serious laughter, love incoming and outflowing from folks old and new, and a large bubble that carries you above the harm that can’t be helped in living.

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TECHNOLOGY: Continuing the Year-End Dusting

Been reading Kerouac, but in keeping with the new year change, I’ve been working on revamping Spinning.  Since I don’t intend to be doing this at exactly midnight tonight, today may reflect the changes–good, bad and in-between–so don’t get nervous if things don’t match or if they look funny as I work.

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LITERATURE: How to Start a New Year

My end-of-year habit to clean things up, get things done, tie up loose ends, put the lid on, etc., has made for a very promising first week of the new year.  I should be getting in about fifty to sixty books.  (Lord only knows where I’ll fit them in the new bookcases.)

Well see the thing is, is that in ordering some books off my list of "to buy" I came across others at such a wonderful deal that I added them in.  Then I hopped from Amazon to Barnes and Noble and then spent a day at Powell’s and I’d always add a couple more in from my list.  Now it bothers me tremendously that I’ll just have a half-dozen or less on my "to buy" list, when I should in fact clean it down to zero.

Then start a new one, of course.

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REALITY?: Year End

It will be so good to see this year close out, though I intellectually know that a particular segment of time as pronounced by society as a "year" such as 2006 has no meaning in the scheme of life.

Emotionally however, and mentally, it can be named and blamed as an period of good or bad, and this one’s been a baddie.  The New Year’s myth is of course generated by hope which is in itself mere imagination.  But it’s the placebo that can work on the mind to make things better because they seem better in our belief. 

So I’m planning the celebration of a coming period of time that will be happier, healthier, and most of all, less stressful.  I’m starting with the hope that a new lawyer can settle things quickly on the matters that have muddled my mind for two years.  I’m becoming more picky in personal relationships and in what I can give and in my expectations of those I choose to include in my life.  I plan to change course in my writing and how I spend the time that’s available to me.  Nothing will overwhelm my commitment to passions, but the blinders are off and the ability to see when I’m just spinning my wheels will become obvious and acted upon. 

I choose to enjoy rather than obsess.  I choose to walk away rather than fight.  I choose to use this coming year in every opportunity it offers.

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CURRENT AFFAIRS: The Execution of Saddam Hussein

I can’t help it; I’m against this execution–not that it matters and especially since it’s not happening in my own country where I might have some sort of say or right to protest. 

It’s simply that I cannot condone the punishment of killing for the crime of killing.  That, and giving any body of society, including the government, the right to kill where it is a crime for an individual to do so–even though the individual’s crime is often carried out with much more reasonable purpose than mere punishment.

And that’s the only reason I’m against it.  Personally, I don’t give a flying fig about the bastard himself.

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LITERATURE: Acquisitions

On order, fifty books.  Most from Barnes & Noble, Powell, and a couple from Amazon.  Prices run anywhere from 65 cents to 10 dollars, but the average is under $5.00.

I do this after every Christmas (unless we’re hurtin’ a bit financially).  I tell Jim not to get me anything much, then when he follows directions, I either go nuts on computer parts or this year, books.

Just discovered Powell’s though I’ve been reading their blog for close to a year now.  Never realized they were right in CT and could have driven to the shoreline and spent a day–and a lot more money, I’m sure–browsing and buying right there. 

A good portion of my selections were directly from my "Books to Buy" list (right sidebar) but many were those I’ve read before and wished I’d saved, or those that just appealed at the time.  I went through 5,200-plus titles online at B&N, but at Powell’s, I went through about twenty pages of 1800 and since I’d already plopped about a dozen books in the cart, switched to my wanted list and selected from there.  I must say that Powell’s had some better deals as far as used books, and the site was much easier to maneuver.  B&N’s had no regular system for lit classics, and I ran across the same titles over and over again so that I often had the impulse to give up.  Their ordering system also was a pain–I’d lost the initial order after going through 1000 titles since they wouldn’t let me open a new account and wouldn’t let me reset my password after an e-mail reminder and instead, wiped out the order. 

So it’s going to be a year (or a few!) of reading. 

Writing’s just going to have to wait.

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WRITING & REALITY?: Quiet Time

We had a very nice Christmas this year; spent time with our neighbor for appetizers and wine, dinner with my brother-in-law’s family for Christmas Eve, and a quiet day relaxing Christmas Day.  Quiet because aside from huffing and puffing, it doesn’t involve a lot of noise to clean an oven and stove.  But I did get it working (the oven wouldn’t turn on though the pilot light was lit) so the prime rib roast is scheduled for the New Year’s weekend.

Today I’m filling out forms for rebates, paying bills, cleaning the refrigerator, and getting my papers together to see a new lawyer later this week.  I really need to start the New Year out without this black cloud over my head that my sister hung up two and a half years ago.

I’m going to try to keep the shop closed this week and concentrate on getting the house cleaned up, the ironing done, the frameshop books updated and of course, installing all the new computer hardware and software.

And reading; I need to get back to some mind-boggling reading.  Writing’s going to take a lower priority with me this year.  It just seems that I don’t really have what it takes to please the literary journal editors yet and it’s not as much fun if it doesn’t get read by others.  The writers group is going to be hopefully taken over by the artistic folk at the college, or laid to rest.  Once I get back into the swing of things, and really hopping with the new media stuff, I may just get inspired to try my hand at writing stories again.

Now I’m back to the drudgery of the refrigerator scum.

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SELF ANALYSIS: Tagged!

Yes, tagged (I’m it!) by the lovely Anne at Ample Sanity, to reveal Five Things You Probably Don’t Know About Me:

  • I’ve always been rather shy, quiet, lacking self-confidence.  However, that changed with age and I’ve become a rather bossy, opinionated and vocal advocate for my beliefs and passions.  Unfortunately, I suppose I should consider that the original lack of self-confidence had a seed of reason behind it.
  • I’m a jack of all trades, master of none.  I can draw a little, write a little, do electrical work, plumbing, carpentry and do some housewifely things as well.  Nothing particularly outstanding; neither be they inadequate.
  • Love to cook, hate to bake.  My specialities are stuffed shrimp, prime rib, duck, and piorogi.  In deserts, I tend toward elaborate, worthwhile, time-consuming delicacies such as Italian Cream Cake (you know, triple layers with almonds, cherries, rum puddings, etc.), and crepes with all kinds of fruit and cream fillings.
  • While I always have had one or two very, very close girlfriends, I’ve had many very strong and deep friendship relationships with men.  Unfortunately, most men didn’t understand that level and insisted it needed to become sexual.  That always fucked things up.
  • I’ve decided to go with the belief in reincarnation.  It ties in nicely with my Catholic upbringing if you see much of it as metaphor and symbolism.  It also offers a terrific reason to get through this round and hope for the next.
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REALITY?: Christmas Booty

Adobe.  A trifold wallet and fine leather belt.  Chocolate liquor cherries.  Absalom, Absalom!, Gravity’s Rainbow, Invisible Man. And, my own pre-Christmas gifts to myself, a camcorder, fax and scanner.

And Adobe.  Premiere, Aftereffects, Atmosphere, Audition, Dimensions, Encore DVD, Framemaker, Livecycle, Pagemaker, Photoshop Elements, Premiere Elements, Streamline.

Obviously, you’re not likely to hear about much else here this month except Faulkner (after Kirouac) and my adventures in Adobe.

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REALITY?: Greetings

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REALITY?: Winding Down

Have been doing nothing but picture framing this past week, dropping into sleep for a few hours between the fifteen-hour days on my feet.  Found that despite the stress, depression, adult ADD, or whatever’s been causing the low production output for the past couple of years was easily overridden by the Christmas deadlines.  That, plus blasting Willie, Waylon and Emmylou to keep me dancin’ and movin’ in the shop.

Just about done, just writing sales slips for pick-ups and damn; here comes in the young woman with her son for two hand-drawn color images of trains that her father drew for her kids.  Her father died last month.  Her tears start up my own; can’t help it. 

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